Lucid || jian

Chapter 9.

Jc's Pov

Connor and I never ended up doing anything, it was pretty funny to me actually. We got to his house and played uno until he won. (He never did, he gave up and threw the cards at me.)
We also binge watched a show on Netflix, and I don't really remember which one because I was very fixated on Connor the whole time.

Connor and I fell asleep in the same bed, all feelings aside this boy was beautifully made, inside and out. So delicate, so innocent and full of life and opinions. Anyone would fall in love with his mind in a heart beat, it made me upset that I wasn't the one.

In the morning I got up first, placing a kiss on Connors head before stumbling to the restroom. I got into the shower slowly, my mind thinking of nothing at the moment. I felt numb, like the world left me behind.

I got out and wrapped a towel around my waist, grabbing the extra toothbrush and brushing my teeth quickly before opening the door. Connor sat there rubbing his eyes before looking over at me, he smiled innocently once again, no trace of lust in his eyes at all. "Well, what a way to start my morning." Connor joked, getting up and walking passed me and closing the door slowly. I saw the clothes Connor laid out for me and I put them on, going to my bag and taking out my sketch book. I stepped out onto his porch and took a seat, drawing the way he looked in the morning.

Ten minutes later Connor came out, handing me a coffee, smiling widely. "What are you drawing?" He asked interestedly, his gaze set on the scenery in front of us. "You." I said quietly, turning the drawing towards him. "Love that's Kian." Connor said, taking a sip of his coffee before taking his eyes away from the drawing. I looked at the drawing, my heart felt heavy. "I don't understand, these are all of you." I said quietly, looking through all the drawings. Everyone of them being Kian, when I knew they were suppose to be Connor.
"You're in love, it's okay." Connor grimaced as he put his coffee down and crossed his legs, laughing quietly.
"Why?" I muttered.c
"I don't know, you tell me." Connor sighed. "Tell me why Jc."

I took this time too look towards the sky, it painted images of me and Kian dancing under it. Our smiles as bright as the sun, our happiness radiating brighter than it.

"Because he keeps me sane. He makes me feel normal, he is the reason the world is a little bit more pure and beautiful. The world slows down when he looks my way, everything becomes more pleasant. His smile gets me in every way possible, it calms down every single person inside me. He keeps me lucid." I said everything quietly, I could go on forever but neither of us had enough time.

"Then why are you here, why don't you go out there and get him. Fuck your pride Jc, this is love. Stop wasting time." Connor raised his voice, trying to be encouraging, even though you could tell it hurt. I nodded and walked out of Connors house, not looking back.

Kian's Pov

It was time for the party already and I had gotten there early to explain everything that happened and how I think Connor and Jc are a thing. Andrea didn't want to hear it though, she just waved me off. "You're thinking to much about it Kian, let it go for one night." Andrea sighed, "and anyways isn't Dom you're booty call?" She asked, not looking at me as she put chips into a bowl. "No, I've never had sex before, he just gives me top." I rolled my eyes, feeling guilty about it. "Well then."

Andrea said, preoccupied as she allowed some people in greeting them. She turned on the music as more people came in, there was around thirty people already there. It was nine and still no sign of Jc. I guess I spoke to soon, he showed up later, by himself. Connor had shown up later, really upset. He didn't even say hello, he was already extremely drunk. Something must've happened.

I watched as Jc looked around carefully, as if he was trying to avoid someone. Jc walked towards the drink area, I watched him from the coach as he took a drink of some kind a liquor. He made the funniest face and it made me laugh. But seconds later my view was blocked my some girl who jumped on top of me, I grunted and pushed her off of me. I couldn't see Jc anymore after that, all I saw was an empty bottle of liquor, uncertainty arose very quickly.

A few hours later I was extremely drunk at this point, I stumbled around and saw what I think was Jc. I turned him around as saw his brown eyes open slowly. "Kian?" He mumbled, stumbling into my arms. "I was looking for you, stupid." He giggled, smiling widely at me. "You just had to throw the stupid in there didn't you." I laughed, helping him into a vacant room. I grabbed a bottle of water and tried to sober up. I handed the water to him and helped him lay down. "Kian, I love you." Jc whined, trying to grab my shirt. I smiled and gently took away his hands. "Sober up, then we will talk." I said assertively as he drank the water.

Jc drank the water and he slowly got up and washed his face before sitting down next to me. "You see Kian, the way my voices work. They are yelling right now, they want me to kill you. But I just want to love you." Jc said, a small grin on his face. He became irresistible.

I grabbed his face a kissed him slowly, a smile showed up on his face and he pulled on my shirt, wanting more.
"They always leave me when we make contact." Jc admitted.
"Stay by me, please. It'll be good for the both of us." He whispered hotly into my ear, and this gave me an entirely different feeling than Dom ever did or anyone. I nodded before he kissed me again, I pushed him down and kissed back aggressively. I got on top of him and kissed his neck, leaving a mark of possession as I did.

"I promise I'll love you right." I whispered, going down slowly, taking his shirt off before I did. "Did I ever tell you how infatuated I am with you." I said as I kissed down his body and admired him.

The last thing I saw was Jc looking at me, eyes not full of lust but of love. The realist love you could ever imagine. And I don't regret any part of the night. We both lost what we held onto so long for each other.

I fell in love with the most insane person I've ever met. And I don't regret a single moment.