Lucid || jian

Chapter 7.

Kian and Jc got off the roof around five am, both boys were exhausted beyond belief. But they still got up for school, because Kian's a good boy and he had too. They got ready again but this time Jc brought his own clothes, they got to school late this time. Kian had never gotten detention in his life and he was freaking out.

"I'll get it off your record I promise." Jc smiled, kissing Kian's cheek, making him calm down. Kian just smiled and nodded as they made their way to the class. He held Jc's hand the whole way there until they got inside. He let go a little late, not noticing that Mr. Dunn saw, he was extremely homophobic. "Late, seriously Kian? I don't expect much from Jc but you really?" Mr. Dunn said as he took the slips from both boys, "Kian I will talk to you at lunch about this." Mr. Dunn said quietly so only he could hear.

Kian and Jc had another three periods of totally gaping at each other, lunch came and Kian had sat down first while Jc went to the restroom. Kian sat down and talked to Connor until he got interrupted by Mr. Dunn and the principal and athletic coach, Kian got up and turned, shaking hands with both men. Ignoring Dunn.

"Hello Kian, we've come to address a reoccurring problem with another boy in you're class. Justin Caylen." The principal said, obtaining eye contact with me.
"What's the problem?" Kian asked, his fists tightening.

"You know that you too are the most intelligent and athletic boys in the school and you don't want to ruin it for ether of you." The athletic coach said, never looking up from his keyboard.

"And I'm going to tell you now, if you are in a gay relationship with Mr. Caylen, don't expect to make the track team this year, or obtain valedictorian." Mr. Dunn said, a small grin forming.

"I'm not in a fucking gay relationship with that fag, what are you taking about? The fact that you even say that disgusts me. Why would I be with that freak. I'm no homosexual and definitely not for him!" I yelled, my body shaking as I looked around panicked and saw Meredith walking passed, I grabbed her and kissed her passionately.

     "Very well then." The principal said, unconvinced. The other two were fully convinced by Kian's show as they walked away.

Jc's Pov

I parted from Kian for the first time today, the smile never leaving my face as if he was still there. I walked to the restroom and fixed my hair a bit until I looked to my right and saw someone right next me too me. I turned and smiled at them, they turned also as screamed to the top of their lungs before disappearing. I jumped back a little bit, forgetting about this part of me.

I needed Kian, but I had a weird sensation that he shouldn't go out there. I shook it off and began walking towards the table, I saw Kian talking to the athletics directors. Hopefully it was something good. I got closer, my eyes trained on him still, he looked distressed. I got closer and began to hear what they were saying. I kept walking and stopped in my tracks when I heard what was said.

"I'm not in a fucking gay relationship with that fag, what are you taking about? The fact that you even say that disgusts me. Why would I be with that freak. I'm no homosexual and definitely not for him!" Kian raised his voice, keeping his eyes on them until he looked around from someone. He grabbed this beautiful blonde girl and kissed her with so much passion and finesse it disgusted me.

They eventually left and Kian stood there with a girl in his arms, once he realized what he was doing he pushed her away. Kian looked at his friends who had their eyes trained on me. He looked my way and saw me standing there, completely defeated. He started walking closer to me and I started walking towards him. My body becoming numb as I did, I was so vulnerable. They took control of me.

"Jc, I'm sorry. I had too." Kian cried, trying to fall into my arms.

"Promise me you'll stay away from me for the rest of your life. I never want to hear from you again. Don't you dare tell me you had to do that to get them to believe you. A simple no would have done the fucking trick Kian. You're the disgusting one."

I spat in his face, trying to control the voices in my head as they whispered murderous thoughts into my head.

"Jc, I'm sorry. I love you so much please."

"Did you not just fucking hear me, do you want to know the things I'd fucking do to you right now boy." I seethed with anger as I grabbed his neck and held it in my hand, closing it as tight as I could before pushing him away.

I had walked off, finishing the rest of the day with Kian trying so hard to fix things. My head wasn't right, but I knew for sure what he did wasn't right either.

Kian had been my ride here so I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to ride with anyone either because I didn't want to hurt them. So I decided to just walk home instead, a few cars passed by and yelled things I didn't want to hear. The voices stared to get unbearable as I finally got home, thank god my sister wasn't here yet, I felt an episode coming. The voices kept yelling at me and getting in my face, I felt hopeless. I sat down and put my back against the wall, I held my head in my hands and I hit it against the wall forcefully.

"Go away! Leave me alone I'm stronger than you!" I yelled, trying to make them leave.

"Just end it, there is no point anymore."
"Fucking kill him already."
"You're fucking useless."
"Who are you!" I asked, my body trembling, looking at the flush faced in front of me.
"You know exactly who I am." He whispered, "you killed me." I shook my head over and over again, crying my eyes out.
"I see the devil in his eyes, he's the devil." The voice enticed me as I kept hitting my head against the wall, I took my keys out of my pocket and through them across the room along with my phone.
"Leave me alone." I repeated three times as his screams got louder.

"He's the devil!"
"He's getting closer!" They yelled loudly, the voices quieting down and getting louder. I covered my ears so I wouldn't hear them but it didn't help.

Kian's Pov

After school I raced to Jc's house, my heart beating out of my chest. It took me some time because I got caught up with a few friends. After that I eventually got to Jc's house, no need to knock on the door after all it was already ajar. I ran inside and saw Jc sitting down, yelling at someone that wasn't there, I ran to him and kneeled in front of me.

"Jc." I muttered as he banged his head against the wall.

"You're the devil, they see it in your eyes!" Jc exclaimed, letting out a throaty laugh.

"I'm gonna kill you, I promise." Jc whispered, pulling me closer.

"You need to leave me alone!" He started yelling in my face then, "you're the fucking devil. You need to leave before I kill you." Jc said angrily, "there are people watching us right now Kian, what do you think about that?" Jc said, laughing again. Raising the hairs on my arms.
"They hurting me Kian, tell them to stop." Jc's voice becomes soft and he cries louder and louder. "Tell them to stop, they being mean." Jc pleads. "They just show me image of me killing you." Jc said sadly, his voice shaking.

I held his hand as the door started opening slowly. "Jc?" A smaller girls voice called excitedly.

"Get her out of here! She doesn't know, she doesn't know!" Jc pleaded, holding his head in his hands.

"But you!" I said,

"Kian I swear I will be ok- please!" He cried and I stood up and ran towards his sister before she could make her way into the door. "Cmon, you're gonna hang out with me for tonight, Jc has a lot of studying to do."
I smiled at her, trying be unfazed by what just happened.
My body trembled as I replayed Jc's actions.

I was terrified, and it intrigued me.