Would you believe me if i told you
That i hated everyone
That i have no love for anybody
I only see the benefit of being with you
I see you as a means to an end
A perfect end, even if not perfect
Just good enough for me, i don't
Want any friends no acquaintances
Just like minded people with The same views
If i were to be honest with you
You would hate and despise me
You would see me only as a villain
You'd say that i was heartless
That i had no soul and no humanity.
I sit with familiar faces smile and laugh
With them, they believe me to be their own
A part of their formulated family
But i see them as pawns
Am i truly evil? Do i really have no soul?
I've always seen myself an exception
A significant figure in the world of many numbers
always different from everybody else
Am i truly one of you? or just pit with you
So as to beat my way to the top
Like a world of gladiators
In this world, i am looked up to
I am loved and appreciated by most
But deep down i see them only as a
Means to an end, a fruitful end
What am i, where am i, who am i?
Can i call this being human
This desire to see myself at the very top
To look down upon every soul
To be the best in every situation
With little or no rivalry, is this normal?
No matter the relationship i have with you
I only see myself one day in a competition
With you, which you or i will be the winner
I want to know, what or how my decision
Will be viewed by everyone out there
Will i be seen as a victor, loser or compassionate
But do i really care what they think of me?
Will it bother me if they looked at me with contempt
Or if they did with admiration, or with pity
No! I don't whatever way they look or see me
Will fade with time, but how will i see myself
When i beat you to the win or when i let you win
I know deep down that i want to win, to be the victor
To rise above all, no matter what is between you
And me deep down i only acknowledge myself
Is this the basic human behavior?
To be selfish? To only know and accept yourself?
Because all i do and all you do is and will continue
To be for yourself and for myself
Why where we put in this world?
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Plunge Into My Thoughts
PoetryThe poems i write give a description of the way i see life and the way its been lived by myself and the people around me, you'll see poems that may not make any sense but if you look deeper you'll see the twisted and complicated way i represent life...
