GANG PRINCESS

Chapter 12:Torn..

Jin's  POV:

"I-Iza?"    well i guess.. ito na yung kinatatakutan ko.. i know it's so stupid of me to think that this day wouldn't come.. but here we are.. magkaharap.. at kaharap ko ngayon ang babaeng minahal ko ng buong puso.. but never loved me back. aaminin ko, the pain was still there. It still hurts, but i should fight this feelings of mine, especially now that i have a fiance'. Hindi ko kayang iwan at saktan ang taong minahal ako, dahil alam ko ang sakit na iyon..  naging mabuti siya sa akin through out these years. And she never gave up on me..

"kuya Jin, a-anong ibig sabihin nito?" oh yeah, and si V. isa sa mga taong lubos akong hinahangaan.. well this wouldn't be easy.

i guess this is the time they should know the truth behind the incident..

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nandito kami ngayon sa isang resto kung saan wala masyadong tao.. i know this would be an emotional heart talk, at alam kong isa sa masasaktan dito ay si V..

"okay.. i know you two are confused right now.. so if you want to understand my situation crystal clear, you must let me speak first.. okay? wala munang sasabat. do you understand?"

huminahon muna si V .... *sigh* how will i tell my reason in front of Iza.? medyo naiilang pa ako.. napansin kong tinitingnan ako ni Yoona.. kaya naman napatingin  rin ako sa kanya. Napansin kong nilipat niya ang tingin niya kay Iza. bigla siyang tumayo sa pagkaka-upo.

"uhm.. excuse me. i'm not feeling well.. i'll go to the rest room muna ha.. and, uhm.. Iza right? pwede ba akong magpasama? kung okay lang sayo?" tumango naman si Iza.. at tumayo narin. That's it.. that's one of my likes about Yoona, ang lakas makiramdam, especially to me.. now i can tell him the reason without hurting Iza..

nakatingin lang sa akin si V, yung tingin ba na parang may halong galit, inis at confusions.. and by that time i know he wants to know..

"i know your upset, frustrated and very disappointed in me.. but i have to tell you that everything was fake..  even my death. i don't know if you already know my reason---"

"it was Iza.. is it?"

"yeah.. it's her.. that time i was so frustrated.. "

*****************FLASHBACK******************

nakaupo ako sa couch ko na nakaharap sa may bintana, it was raining so hard that night, while i was holding a picture frame where a picture of the girl i love was place. ayokong umiyak, pero patuloy na tumutulo ang mga luha ko mula sa mata, without even exerting  much effort.. i guess i was really hurt that moment... 

napatingin ako sa labas ng  bintana, then looked at the starless sky.. ang lungkot.. i felt so sad, and so Down.. and as the lightning strikes.. may isang litrato ang nakakuha ng attensyon ko, ang litrato ni mama.. i stood up and  walk towards the picture. tinitigan ko ito ng matagal, ang mga ngiti ni mama. it's always genuine, and suddenly it reminds me of something.

"if were rejected, it's their lost, not yours.." i remember mom always tells me those words.. and i have forgotten..

hindi ako pwedeng mabuhay ng ganito, i should live peacefully. gusto kong bumalik yung dati kasama si dad at si V.. but not just now.. i still have to move forward..

kaya napagpasyahan ko na umalis at magpakalayo, kaya lang naisip ko na kahit aalis ako ng walang paalam, dad would try to find me.  "hay naku, minsan mas gusto kong mamatay nang sa ganun wala nang hahanap sa akin.."