Mr. Nerdy and Me - A Cameron Dallas Fanfiction

Chapter 9 - In my mind

After Hunter left all I could really think of was how happy mine and Luke's relationship has been this entire time. Ever since the beginning of our relationship. Ever since I moved here in Sophomore year from Wisconsin yes Wisconsin it was terrible honestly but now sometimes I actually miss it. I don't know how I could ever miss that damn place. So in my Sophomore year Luke and I started dating he was on the Varsity Soccer team and every girl in our grade wanted him. I wanted him too he just looked super adorable and he was really nice and could always make me laugh. 

We actually had our first kiss at one of his soccer games. He scored the winning goal and after the game he came up to me in the stands and kissed me in front of everyone. It our first kiss as a couple that's always special and I really loved that first kiss it just made me smile and blush with all the people watching us. Which makes me laugh now that I think of it.

After that kiss he would go to the locker room and get changed and everything before taking me back to my house. I use to go to all of his soccer games during our Sophomore and Junior years, I mean I use to play soccer when I was little and I just loved it even though I really wasn't the best at it. I would always trip over my own two feet or someone else.

Our first year as a couple just feels so long ago, I can barely ever remember it and this year was gonna be our third year as a couple but obviously we didn't make it that far with everything.

Then my mind led to thoughts about why he cheated on me. Was he just trying to get pleasure from other girls that I wouldn't give to him? I wouldn't do anything with him and over our two years of dating we haven't done anything really. Just kissing I just didn't want to do something stupid in High School that I would regret for the rest of my life but one of the biggest regrets in my life is falling for Luke. I know that I couldn't have know that two years down the road my boyfriend would cheat on me with someone and then leave me really without an explanation on why.

That's seriously all I want! Is an explanation on why. What did I do to deserve to get cheated on? If he wasn't happy why the hell didn't he just tell me so? He could have broken up with me or let me down easily we could have had time away from each other but rather than that he's just pushed me away and became a huge asshole like Luke said.

All I really want to do is be loved by a nice and sweet guy and there's only two guys that are my friends that are like that. They are Cameron and Hunter.

Hunter is such a huge sweetheart and puts everyone before himself he just wants to see other people smile and happy. And just help people when they are down, he's one of those people that just keep to themselves with their feelings, feeling as if nobody cares what the heck they are feeling like but on how they can help others. Just wanting to make everyone else's day but not take care of themselves. But Hunter worries me sometimes with all the struggles that he is going through how does he just sit back and just not talk about them? It's crazy on how he can do that like he just doesn't give a fuck about his own feelings but when you ask him about how he feels he tells you exactly how he feels so passionately. Then there's Cameron..

Oh Cameron he's just a cutie. He would be the type of guy I would go for it doesn't matter to me if he's a nerd or not.. well actually it does I think that's what is keeping me away from him is that he's a nerd and I'm popular so I shouldn't fall for that when obviously I won't be as popular anymore if I dae a nerd or who knows Cameron could just be playing with me just like Luke did..

Sometimes I just feel like I should just run away and see if anyone would notice that I'm gone. Yeah sure I'm one of the most popular girls in school but do you really think anyone is really gonna notice that I'm gone? No these bitches could just replace me like how they replace every single other person that has come and gone. 

I don't know how I even think anymore my mind is just cluttered with everything from trying to remember to do all my homework to trying to find out who the hell my real friends are.. If I even have any. That is the one thing tha pisses me off is having to much shit on my mind and just not knowing how to go through with any of it or express it. Because when I keep stuff bottled up inside like I always do there is always that one time that I just explode because I just can't hold this shit in any longer.

Nobody not even me should have so many worries on their shoulders when they are a High Schooler. Yeah High School is the fucking feeding place for drama but do you really think any of this shit from high school drama is really gonna matter when we are out of this fucking place and in the world doing bigger and better things? No it isn't going to matter we aren't going to give a fuck about what people think of us or what the fuck people don't like about what we are doing or whatever because that's all in the past and it doesn't matter because we change every day and most of those bitches at school are two-faced anyways so don't need to listen to their shit.

Those are the kinds of things that I can't stop thinking about before I fall asleep all those pointless questions and things that just make me even more stressed out then I was to begin with. I guess we all just need to learn not to care anymore.

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A/N:

So I hope you all liked the chapter and the stuff for me to update for the next time are 8 comments and 20 votes. That's when I'll update again hopefully that isn't too hard for you all and also I have a surprise for all of my readers. If you haven't noticed already this story is already almost at 9k reads which is freaking amazing and in celebration I have gotten a trailer made. It's made by Ari_forev and she's amazing at what she doesn't really so I'll give y'all the link and also put it in the sidebar so please check it out!

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