Mr. Nerdy and Me - A Cameron Dallas Fanfiction

Chapter 16 - Our Time At The Park

A/N:

I just wanted to start off with wishing everyone a Happy Thanksgiving, I hope everyone has a nice holiday and all.

~Nessa

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As we just sat together in the park with my head placed gently on Cam's shoulder, the shade of the tree was really nice. I could just sit here for hours with Cam, he just makes a really good pillow right now. I breathed in the nice warm air with a smile, opening my eyes slowly. I looked up at Cam, his eyes were still closed as he was relaxing; I rested my head back on his shoulder my eyes just wandering the landscape. 

"Cam when do you wanna start heading back?" I asked him quietly since the park was quite peaceful right now. 

"Umm whenever you're ready." He says quietly. 

"Okay." I say softly, pulling my knees to my chest hugging him.

Cam sits up a bit, stretching his legs out in front of him. We just sit in silence for awhile, it wasn't awkward or anything it was nice we were just enjoying the presence of each other. The quietness of it all just got me to start thinking, not about him but just abut myself. About if I'm really happy with my life about how it's going. About how I'm treating myself, am I taking myself too hard?  Did I make the right descision about not taking back Luke? Right now all that I could thinkabout were all the bad descisions that I've made throughout this year and years before. Just not caring abut my grades, I see why my parents have signed me up for tutoring. They are worried about me, I'm actually glad that my parents are worried about me. even if I don't seem like I'm glad all the time I truly am. I wouldn't want to have those kinds of parents that just don't care about me at all, the ones that don't give a shit about what I'm doing or who I'm hanging out with. Sure my parents may be overprotective sometimes and all but I still love them. Including my dad even if he is an asshole most of the time I don't care. 

My mind then starts drifting off to thinking about my friends, all my friends. The ones that I use to talk to all the time and the ones I don't talk to at all anymore. Sure people change all the time, we lose our friend that we've cared about for the longest time the ones that we've known forever and that deep down we've always cared about. I use to be best friends with Annabeth, we were great at the beginning of the year but now we don't even talk. It just seems that once something bad has happened in your life it shows who your real friends are. Real friends are the ones that will stick by your side and will be with you through the thick and thin. My only true real friends are Hunter and Cameron, it only omes to show that Annabeth was never truly my real friend even with all the small things that we've gone through over the years maybe she just didn't want to be there for me anymore. I'm just mostly happy that I've had great friends throughout the years, many have come and gone but after this year most of that won't matter. I'll be off the college hopefully when my grades start improving and I spend more time on myself and don't need a guy to always be in my life. I want to do something great with my life, I want to make myself proud of the things that I can do. 

I snap out of my thoughts when I see out of the corner of my eye Cameron standing up. "Care you join me on the swings?" He asked, holding his hands out to me to help me stand.

"Of course." I say with a smile, taking his hands he pulls me up from the ground and to my feet. "Thank you." I say softly. 

"You're welcome." He says, dropping my hands and heading over to the swings that moved slowly in the small breeze that swept through the park. I make my way over to the swings after him, taking a seat on the swing next to him. I looked over at Cam with a small smile appearing on his lips as he looked at me. 

Cameron and I just sat on the swings for what felt like eternity but not in the bad way. It's pretty much like spending time with him lifts weights off my shoulders. That when I'm with him or Hunter I can be myself and I don't have to put on a pretend personality or dress myself up to be around them. I can just do me and they can do themselves. That's what makes me happy all the little things. I don't need some big events or anything to make me happy because truly all the big things that have happened in my life I barely remember but most of the little things in my life I remember. In the end most of the memories we remember anyways are the little moments that have made us happy, sad, or just unexplainable feelings. After the eternity of Cameron and I sitting on the swings we began to make our way back to my house.