You know when you think you get over someone, and then they start talking to you again and you're like "THE FEELS"? Well, that isn't the case for me anymore. I'm actually really proud of myself for being able to get over Jared so fast. Jailyn has started talking to me too, and she's soooo nice. I misjudged her, but I don't think she likes Jared all that much anymore. She doesn't talk to him in school as much as she used to, but I could be wrong. Whateverrrrr though.
I got an email from this modeling agency that my mom used to model for, and they want me to try out, but I'm kind of scared. I feel as though they won't accept me. I'm not perfect like my mom, sadly. My hips aren't the same size, that has to count for something. But whatever I'll still do it! I'm excited.
Joshua and I haven't spoken for abouttttt ... 2 days? Yeah, two days. I'm not complaining or anything, I just wish he would text me everyday, ya know? Whatever, like I've said before, I will not get obsessed!
This girl I'm no longer friends with stole my ring and started telling people her mom gave it to her..let's just take a moment to laugh at how low she is please... And then when I asked for it back she said she forgot to...she sees me 4 periods of the day, I know she didn't forget because she kept staring at that ring all day! She thinks I'm not observant, well, HA, because I am! She's so dumb and I hate her, I wanted to rip her fingers off her hands and make her eat them.
Anyway, on a much brighter note, today is Tuesday, and yesterday I didn't say a word to Joshua. I didn't want to seem like I was desperate. Although I didn't say anything today either, I did do something. He was sharpening his pencil by the door of our eighth period class and I was leaving the room to go to the bathroom, and as I passed him, I tickled his elbow and left. That's not bad right? Idk, I'm crazy don't mind me ok 😭 I hope he was thinking "oh yes finally she touched me" LOL JK. But last weekend, we were talking and. OMG it's a long story, here we go..
Remember when I said I was helping out with choreography for the Seussical at my school? Ok, well the show was last weekend, and my friend wanted to go with me. Only problem was, was that my friend was bringing a date! I didn't want to third wheel, and I told her that, so she told me I should invite Joshua. I was a little hesitant about it, but then I thought about it. The worst he could do was say no. So I texted him and I said I had a question. He didn't answer me until the middle of the musical. He apologized for answering so late because he was at a baseball game. I told him that it was ok, but it was too late to ask the question. He still wanted to know what it was, so I told him I wanted him to go to the musical with me. He seemed really upset, and said he wished he wouldn't have gone to his baseball game. He said he would've preferred to go to the musical with me! Ah! Then he started saying all this stuff he would've done with me during the musical. He said stuff about going outside during intermission to get a "breath of fresh air" but in reality he meant make out (he explained it to me because I was confused) then he said he wouldn't have minded making out in front of other people because he doesn't care if people know he's attracted to me. I felt so good, but surprised. I always thought he was really quiet, but he's not. He was also saying the things he would do to me if we were alone, which made me uncomfortable, but I accepted it because it made me feel pretty good considering I don't usually get attention from people I like. He's a cutie too, so it's ok. And he's so respectful, whenever he said something the slightest bit inappropriate, he would say "not to be a creep" afterward. It's so adorable lmao.
