It's been almost a month since I've talked to or texted Camila, I have no idea how she's been doing. And just when I'm going through my Instagram, I see a picture of her and some other girl I don't know. It is tagged Ariana Grande, huh, is she from our school?
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I like the picture but deep down I am so so uncomfortable, has she moved on from me this fast? I guess it's fair to say that, because I haven't been obsessed with her lately either. And I thought I could finally start a steady relationship.
My winter holiday has been awful, just yesterday I had the talk with my parents, when my brother, Chris, is out. My dad was cool about it, but my mother is still against it. Why can't they just be like Camila's parents about this?
After lunch, I get a text, it's Camila. Part of me is really really happy, but the other, sad.
Camila: Heyyy
Me: Hey Camila
I kinda miss her.
Me: whats up??
I know she wouldn't just text me without wanting something.
Camila: why do u assume somethings up, I wanted to ask how u were doing.
Camila: I got a notification saying u liked my pic 😂
Me: oh yeah, haha
Me: I've been miserable tbh
Me: just had the talk with my parents yesterday, my mom is sick about it, and im sick of her
Camila: aww Lauren I wish I could give u a hug rn
Me: thanks, and how r u?
Camila: I've been ok, time is helping me get over u
Wow, so straightforward.
Me: oh
Me: im still sorry about that Camila, my heart hurts too u know?
Camila: is that why u've been so miserable?
Me: yes, u still seem to get me
Camila: ofc Lauren ❤️
Well, since my mom's never going to approve, I'm not gonna try and get my feelings for her back. I just can't wait for school to start and enjoy my school life with my friends in my class, Dinah, Ally, Normani, and pfff Shawn.
Speaking of my friends, I text Dinah to see how she's doing.
Me: Hey Dinah, hows it going??!!
Few minutes later she replies.
Dinah: Great and u?
Me: miserable
Me: just had the bisexuality talk with my parents
Dinah: aww and?
Me: dad ok, mom not
Me: fuckkkk
Dinah: Geez Lo chill, time helps you know? Next month she'll get over it.
Me: u think so?
Dinah: bitch I know it
Me: good, thx Dinah.
That actually made me feel better what the fuck? Then she asks me out for a movie, so I guess I'm meeting Dinah tomorrow for "The Emoji Movie". Yay, I'm not gonna waste another day in my stuffy bedroom.
School is almost starting, and as a straight A student, I finished all my homework. Somehow there is just one tiny bit of me that doesn't feel relieved, I fucking wonder what it is.
