I freeze again, not believing what just happened. I am so dumb, why the fuck did I tell Ari to grab a drink with her, of course she'll pick Starbucks. I feel so guilty and sad. I want to go after her but as I turn around, Lucy grabs my arm and says,
"Laur, sometimes it's best to leave people alone when they're moody."
"yeah" says Ariana STILL LOOKING AT HER PHONE. UGH, phones, this must be how old people feel when we do that.
"Fine." I say, giving up.
Then Lucy and I sit with Ariana and chat for about half an hour. Then we all go home, I don't know about them, but I go home by myself because my mom only sends me to school and lets the bus take me home.
Speaking of home, an hour later, I am. I go to my room to firstly finish my homework. I do that so I can put my school stuff away and play for the rest of everyday.
As I'm almost finished, Shawn texts me a photo, I am curious so I open it. I unlock my phone and click the blurred pictures of text messages.
My heart breaks every time a little bit more as I scroll down the screenshot.
Shawn:
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I text him back using my current rushing mood
Me: omg she's sad????!!!?!??
Shawn: yes, she is also mad and jealous for all the things you did with Lucy instead of her.
Me: fuckkk omg what should I doooo?????!?!? help me Shawn!!!!
Shawn: well I already made her feel better, I guess you have to be more outgoing with her, she likes you so much.
Me: wait what kind of like???
Shawn: omg just talk to her.
Shawn: and did u let her leave when she left?
Me: yes, lucy said she needed space and that ppl wants to be alone when theyre moody.
Shawn: omg Lauren! how can u be so dumb as an A student?
Shawn: I can't believe I know Camila more than u, she isn't that kind of person, she's the ones that want comfort from people that are important to her when they're sad. You should've gone after her Lauren.
Shit. He's right. My tears are rolling down my cheeks as I realize the seriousness of this one hang out after school with the wrong person. This is all Lucy's fault and Ariana's, they brought us in one shop, and they told me I should give her space. AHHHH!!
I hate myself. I text him back.
Me: omg Shawn u r right, I can't believe what I did, is she really hurt?
Shawn: yes, we are talking actually and she's singing so many sad songs, I feel like she's about to cry any minute.
Me: okay I'm gonna talk to her, tyssssm for telling me this.
Shawn: np
I wipe away my tears, put away my homework and decide to finish tomorrow in school. I change into my pajamas, also deciding to skip dinner, and lay myself on my bed.
I call her.
She takes some time to pick up but eventually she does.
Shawn: Again? 😡
Oops, forgot she was still talking to Shawn.
"hello?" says a soft sleepy voice.
"hi Camila" I say back.
I forgot what to say.
"what's up?" she says cold.
"umm, nothing, are you in a bad mood?"
Since for 5 seconds.
"no" is all she says.
"Camila?" I say softly, knowing she's not okay.
"yeah?" she replies.
"are you ok?" I ask sincerely.
Silence again.
"no" finally the truth.
"can you please tell me?" I try my best not to make her feel worse.
"it's complicated." she says, sucking her nose.
"I'm here all night, Camila." I say with a hopeful smile.
"So after about a month of school with you, I'm just so used to it, and when you changed our ritual, I just felt so different. And when I saw you today with Lucy doing all the things we did, I felt like I was replaced. I'm just really sad." she says. And word after word she goes high pitch and at the end, I can hear she is starting to whimper.
"Aww Camila, hearing you cry and not being able to do anything makes my heart ache so much. Can I come to your house or you to mine? I want hug you." I fucking spoke my thought. Fuck.
She sucks her nose, "okay, come over please."
"Text me the address?" I ask.
"Kay, see ya." she slowly hangs up.
Yay, it's actually not that far, I can use my skateboard. Why the fuck did we choose such a far place to hang out last time? I change back to my normal clothes and tell my mom I'm going to a friend's house for dinner. Don't know about dinner, but I'm being there for my best friend.
When I arrive, I knock on the door. Seconds later, Camila answers it. I close in and give her a hug and see that her house is really bright and loud.
"Hi Camila" I say as I break the hug.
"Hi Lauren." she says quietly, "we're having dinner wonna join us?"
As I am thinking about my answer, I think it is her mom who calls, "Karla, is it her?"
I blink and turn to her, "your mom knows me?"
"yeah of course, you were kinda my girlfriend for a second." she says with a smile. "come in"
I go in and her family greets me, how nice. "Hi, Mrs. and Mr. Cabello" I say with a smile.
They are all so welcoming with hugs. Now I see where Camila gets her personality from.
"Please~ call me Sinu, this is her dad Alejandro and her sister Sofia." Sinu says, "Wonna join us for dinner?" She asks kindly.
"Uhh, I kinda just wanted to talk to Camila..." I say hesitantly.
"Oh come on, you are gonna have to wait for her anyways, might as well eat with us." she says with a smile.
"Oh ok then, thank you so much." I say then taking my shoes off.
I see Camila standing beside me without a word, still looking really down.
