My nose was EXPLODING.
I think I caught a cold from standing out in the rain for so long. Serves me right. Sulking in the pouring rain. I really am an idiot. Erin's a bigger idiot though.
After I took a shower, put my dress away, and put in my PJs I jumped into bed. Well, I was worn out so it was more like a flop. It was around 10:00 P. M, yeah I literally spent the whole day outside in the rain. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Erin walking away to some place I just couldn't follow him too. I couldn't fall asleep. Thanks, a lot Erin. I sat by the window, clutching V chan in my arms. I couldn't shake the feeling something bad was happening. Things would be fine in the morning. They had to be. The first star of the night shone in the midnight blue sky. Maybe if I made a wish. Maybe just this once it would be granted.
Star light
Star bright
First star I see tonight
Ummm I can't remember the rest
But please hear me out
Why did the universe have to make wishes so hard to make? Maybe that's why none of mine have ever come true. The universe could be really cruel sometimes. I took a deep breath before starting. "So, I'm not exactly sure how this sort of stuff works but I'll try my best. Please, please, please, please, please. Please save Erin from whatever sort of suffering he's going through right now. Please let him be okay." My eye lids squeezed shut and my hand intertwined as I prayed to the lone star shining in the night sky. "Please let my wish come true. Please."
I looked at the time, 11:11 P. M, that was some sort of good luck right? I hope so, I'll take all the luck I can get right now. Gradually the sky began to fill up with lights. A crescent moon created a spotlight shining through my window. It was like thousands of shattered light had been tossed across the sky. I wonder, what would it look like if you collected all those tiny pieces and put them back together again. What would the galaxy look like if it was whole again?
So many questions with no time to answer. Or maybe I just don't have the brain power. Feelings suck, I liked it better when I was emotionless. Things were less complicated and it didn't hurt like feelings do. I miss having that sense of nothing. To be honest, I wouldn't mind going back to being that way but, I wouldn't give up loving Erin for anything.
The last time I felt that way towards anyone was when Viran was around, but he was gone. Ghosts just aren't the same. So when I die I don't want to have any regrets that could keep me here. Thinking about that, Erin was talking about killing myself and him dying. I scare myself sometimes.
Out of nowhere, I sneezed spraying all kinds of stuff all over the place. This was gonna be a long night.
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