A story where a boy meets a girl. Where secrets and lies are always exposed and where the past comes out to play.
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"Alexandra, were you just checking me out?"
"I'd much rather shit in my hands and clap."
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* warning : this chapter deals with mature topics. If you're uncomfortable, please forward until you no longer see italics. Just read the last two paragraphs in italics. *
Alexandra's POV
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The woods behind my house used to represent solace and refuge to me.
"Get back here, you little bitch!"
My lungs burn as I place each foot in front of the other. My aching body is telling me to give up but my mind refuses.
It's dark in the woods and I can barely make out the outlines of the trees but I need to continue. Run.
My eyes dart from trail to trail trying to find the quickest possible route out of this maze.
I hear the crunching of leaves become increasingly closer. I need to choose. Left or right?
Get it together Alex.
Left.
My bare feet pound against the floor as I make my way through the exit and onto the open field before me.
It's quiet now. All I hear is my heavy panting and the blood pumping through my veins.
I take a minute to look up and the evening sky. An abyss. The moon looks down at me in sadness. And the twinkling stars match my shining cheeks.
A cool breeze rolls through the air sending shivers through my body and over my bare legs. The thin t-shirt I'm wearing does absolutely nothing to protect me from the cold. My socks are wet and sandy from the dewy ground.
Just when I thought I'd gotten away from this nightmare, I hear him. And I know this time there's no getting away.
What could I do? Scream and have no one hear me? Ignore me.
"Oh Lexi. You should be ashamed running around this late at night wearing only a flimsy t-shirt and panties," he says, touching my shoulder,"someone could snatch you up and hurt you. Luckily you ran into me."
The tears continue to flow over my cheeks, wetting my t-shirt.
Slowly, Anthony spins me around and my green eyes meet his pitch black ones.
"Please Anthony. Please don't do this. Not tonight."
He places a gentle hand on my cheek and I flinch. "Now Lexi, why would I want to do that? You're the best part of my night."
He reaches down to his belt and begins unbuckling his trousers.
Fight or flight. Flight or flight is the only thing running through my head but neither make any sense to do. Anthony is twice my size, he'd probably kill me if he wanted to do. And, there was nowhere I could run to, where he couldn't catch up.
"Please. Ant, please."
He softened at the sound of his nickname. But it was quickly replaced by the lust.
He placed me down on the wet grass and began stripping me.
My clothes and dignity left together.
"Lex, look me in the eyes. It helps me," he said as he grabbed me by the hair, "LOOK AT ME."
"Stop," I cried. "You're hurting me."
Pain and then numbness to it all. The tears running down my face stopped. Although my physical body was lying there, in a pasture, in the middle of buttfuck Massachusetts, with my underwear around my ankles and getting force fucked by a man I looked up to, my brain was in a completely different place.
Where ever I was, it was peaceful and warm and I was happy.
And just like that, like a snap of the fingers I was back to reality.
Anthony had finished and was zipping up his pants, ready to leave.
He placed a sloppy kiss on my lips and headed back towards the woods, "thank you baby. Tonight was good. Maybe next time you could participate a bit more. Oh and men don't like to chase."
And he left.
I laid there that night, wondering what the fuck I did to deserve this. Curled up in a ball waiting for death to consume me. It never came and I was too much of a coward to go looking for it. I wasn't as brave as my mother.
That night, I lost my smile. I lost hope. My happiness. And I continued to see the world in black and white. Fuck colours. They're bullshit anyway.
I'm just some cheap whore. I don't deserve pretty things.
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Long time no see.
I apologise for going AWOL but you know high school shits on us all.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter, it was incredibly difficult for me to write but this is only the beginning.
