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song: looking for a star by xxxtentacion
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han looked to his left, straining his eyes to read the alarm clock across the room. it sat on the windowsill, where the darkness outside slowly turned to a navy blue sky. the clock read 5:30AM, and han had to be awake in less than three hours. he turned his head to face the ceiling. he lifted his hand and rested it in the sandy blond locks of his lover, the smaller boy that laid across his chest. he sighed, his mind in darker places than he preferred. luke was sick. he had been diagnosed with lupus and it was only a matter of time before it turned terminal. han was trying to enjoy the moments he had with his lover before luke's time ran out, but it was hard when his illness was constantly hanging over han's head.

the boy that laid sprawled across his chest stirred, waking up. he made noise, uncomfortable whines escaping his lips as he gained half-consciousness.

"shh..." han whispered, lightly rubbing lightly rubbing the boy's back.

"what's... what's going on?" luke said, his voice tired and strained. he was still half asleep.

"nothing, sweetheart." han whispered, moving his hand up to luke's neck and rubbing softly. "you had a bad dream, that's all."

luke sighed, his breath shaking. "han?"

"yeah?"

luke hesitated. "i'm scared."

han swallowed, attempting and failing to hide the pain lodged in his throat. "i know, baby. i am too."

luke adjusted himself so his arms were around han's neck, his head next to han's. "i don't want to die." he said, letting sobs escape his throat as he broke down.

han propped himself up, sitting up so lung could crawl into his lap. "you aren't going to die." he said, taking luke's hand into his own. luke looked down at their interlocked hands and shut his eyes tightly as tears ran down his cheek, squeezing han's hand desperately.

"i love you, han."

han shut his eyes, squeezing luke's hand back. "i love you too, baby boy."