2014: Age 17
Dear diary,
I am getting even more depress and I am terrified that my depressing thoughts would change to suicidal thoughts.
My friend, Laila, has been trying to help me but I kept pushing her away. Just like I did to my family.
I'm not close with my friends anymore, we rarely talk outside of school.
I'm not close with my family anymore. Whenever my relatives visit I would stay locked up in my room. I used to go and talk to them a lot, trying to catch up with them but I distanced myself instead.
I have been skipping meals lately because I don't have the appetite.
I don't think that I'm allowed to, because maybe I'm just not worth it.
I never realized that I have gone suicidal.
My mum kept asking me whats wrong but as usual I just said that I'm fine. When I'm not, but I will be, hopefully.
She barged into my room to witness that it was pitch black and saw me lying in bed, listening to music.
She then started to give me a lecture about my grades and life in general.
Suddenly, the lecture turned emotional.
"I want my old daughter back. It's like you've been abducted by aliens and came back with no emotion or ambition. What happen? How can I help to be your old self?"
I felt so sorry towards my mother. I never meant to hurt her this way. I never meant to become so unsuccessful.
I am trying to be my old hyper-self, but I don't know anymore.
I lost my soul and at this point I just want to kill myself.
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Dear Diary
Short StoryIt talks about the character's mind, emotions and what had happened in her daily life. The story shows the development of the character's mind through out the years. The message of this story is that, there is hope for happiness for everyone.
