Needless to say I did get sick from being in that fountain. But I still couldn't rattle what I tried to do that night, I me, try to kiss my bestfriends boyfriend that's not like me, but, what came over me? I haven't seen Luke in over a week I never told Brit what happened I was to afraid to.
Since I saw the way she freaked out when I came home and her dress was all wet. I couldn't imagine what would happen if I told her what I tried to do. Was I avoiding Luke? I guess you can say that, but how can you avoid someone when your roommate was dating them? Easy I just left whenever he was around.
I knew that someday I would have to see him, but I didn't think it would be today. I was sitting at my desk writing my story as usual when there was knock at the door I figured it was Brittany since she left her key here.
I got up and walked over to the door and opened it "Like" I said surprisingly "Hey I left my jacket here from the party you had like, three weeks ago" he said to me "Right just come in and grab it" I said to him as I went to go sit down in my chair and get back into the writing zone. He grabs his coat and sit's down in Brittany's chair "Mind if I chill here" he asked me "Not at all, I actually forgot I have to meet James at the coffee shop" I said as I grabbed my coat and purse.
"Wait" Luke said grabbing my purse string "Are you trying to avoid me" he asked "No" I lied "I really do have to go" I said to him as I shut the door and head down the stairs.
I sat at the coffee shop by myself just thinking that I should have brought my laptop with me since I might be here a while. As I was sitting down on my phone it started to get packed. "Excuse me is this seat taken" a familiar voice asked me " Actually yes Luke, it is" I said to him without looking up "To bad" he said taking a seat.
"What do you want" I asked him as he sat down "I want you to talk to me" he said looking at me "I am talking to you" I said to him as I sipped on my coffee. "You've been avoiding me" he said "why, is it because of that night at the fountain" he added on.
"I feel like every time i'm around you I feel guilty, that I almost kissed my best friend's boyfriend so I just thought it would be better to just say away but clearly I couldn't even do that, Luke I like you but there's nothing I can do about it so until I figure things out I'm just going to stay out of the limelight" I said to him as I gathered my things and headed out the double doors.
As I walked out of the coffee shop I can feel my heart crushing with every step I take. A single tear dripped down my cheek and onto my black plaid scarf. Why did I feel this way towards him I mean he hit me with his car for christ sakes. I can't say that I loved him because I didn't, but I can say I had feelings for him since I first saw him my freshman year. We barely talked then but now that I basically saw him everyday the feeling began to come back.
I sprinted back to the room as it began to rain. Walk into the elevator press floor seven. "Is it still raining outside" Brittany asked me as I walked thru the door "Cat's and dog's" I said to her as I began to unravel my scarf and take off my coat and boots. "Where were you today" she asked "Coffee shop" I responded "Were you crying" Brit said "No just my contacts are bothering me" I said as I went to the bathroom to take them off and get ready for bed.
I tossed and turned that night with multiple thoughts running thru my mind. But when I did fall asleep all I could dream of was him. I decided to leave the dorm and head down to the lobby. I sat on the couch and looked outside at the pouring rain.
"Rough night" Bree said as she sat next to me "Hey Bree, just guy troubles" I said as I smiled at her "What kind of guy troubles?" she asked " I'm confused I like this guy who is also my friends boyfriend, I was thinking about kissing him but I stopped myself because I knew it was wrong then we talked at the coffee shop and told him I need time to figure out what's going on and when I left I felt so heart broken" I told her while still looking out the window.
She put her hand on my shoulder "Guy's are confusing and figuring out if you like one is even more confusing, but what I always do is that I go out with someone else and if I think about them the whole time i'm with my new guy I really do like them" she said to me "Thank's Bree" I said to her as I hugged her "No problem" she said as she got up and went back to her room.
