Do you miss it

Old Friends

'I miss my old friends cause they know when I need them the most'

Camila's POV

"Then at 1:45 you have to get to the airport to fly back to Miami" my manager, Roger told me. I'm currently in LA because I had to promote crying in the club and my new songs OMG and Havana. We started this Wednesday and it's Sunday now. Yeah I'm still on tour with Bruno but there's no show for the next 2 days.

So Roger decided that on my 'break', I'd be busy doing promo and other interviews. So I don't really get a break at all, besides the small break I'll have at home tonight and tomorrow night. At this point I just want to go home and stay.

Lately I've been kind of depressed I guess you can say. I don't know. There's just alot going on and it's like no one around here really understands. I was brought out off my thoughts when I remembered that I should probably listen to Roger.

"Then when we get back to Miami you have to go straight to Y100 from the airport" Roger informed me. Wait. "What happened to my 2 hour break?" I asked now fully focused on the man standing in front me. "There's no time Mila" Roger said as if it didn't effect me at all, looking at his phone.

"There was time when you told me I'd have a break. What changed?" I questioned with a deep sigh. That 2 hour break may not seem like much but that break was the only thing that might have kept me going.

I love what I do and who I work with don't get me wrong. I just need...space. "Another guest won't be able to make it so they just moved your time up by a couple hours. You'll be fine. We'll get you some Energy-C and everything will be fine. You're a strong person.

Roger said to me before his phone rang, making him leave the room to take the call, leaving me there beyond overwhelmed. I flopped back on the couch, covering my face with my hands. That's all I can do at this point. No one here seems to understand what this is like.

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Dinah's POV

"Stop! Ally you gotta get the timing right for that turn and Dinah. I shouldn't be saying this again. It's step to the right, drop, bring it up, THEN the hip thing" our choreographer, Sean basically yelled. Again. This is daily for us.

We come to rehearsal, things start off fine until people start getting tired/falling behind, Sean starts getting annoyed with us which just makes us annoyed. But it's our routine. "Let's try this again. If you must, make leaving here your motivation"

Sean yelled as he paced in front of us. I sighed as me and the girls got in our positions. I heard a sigh come from my left. I made eye contact with Lauren and we both rolled our eyes, giggling before going back to being serious.

The music started and we started our dance for what felt like the hundredth time today.

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"I'm fucking exhausted" Lauren sighed as we climb into our ride that's taking us back to the hotel. We're in Miami and to be honest, I'm not sure what for exactly. Mostly just interviews, meetings, and stuff like that.

Eventually you start losing track of where you are and why. "Me too" Normani said, pulling out her phone and laying her head on Ally's shoulder. "Sean was killing me. Every time I even sat down he would have some stupid lecture about not working hard enough" Normani complained.

"His bad vibes always put everyone else in a bad mood" Lauren inserted getting a chorus of yeah's from us. "I'm glad we can complain to each other. I would probably blow up if I couldn't get things off my chest" Lauren giggled before sighing in content and going on her phone.

I am grateful for these girls. They actually understand and we get where each other are coming from. 'I don't know what I'd do without them' I think to myself before putting my ear buds in and letting the music relax me.

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Camila's POV

"Just sleep on the plane Mija" My mom said to me. Right now it's about 2:00 and we're boarding our flight. "I can't Mami. Remember? I have to go through those emails before we even land" I told my mom, bringing my left hand to my head to rub my temple.

"It won't take 5 hours to do that" my mom said when we finally got to our seats. "No but it will take over an hour and I still have to face time with Benny for most of the flight" I informed my mom as I got my laptop, getting ready to go through emails.

I wanted to get this over with as fast as I could. "You can't over work yourself Camilita" My mom told me in a concerned tone. I can not have her worrying about me right now. "I'm not Mami. I'm fine. I just have to get things done".

I explained, trying to ease my mom's worry. I quickly pulled my hair into a messy bun, securing it with one of the many hair ties on my wrist. Pulling out my ear buds, I quickly put them in before my mom could speak.

I don't want her to worry about me. Especially with Sofi getting ready to go back to school soon. I won't take attention away from my baby sister just because I can't seem to get my thoughts together. I'll get over it.

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Finally. After hours of not being able to rest, my schedule for today is finished. I decided I would take a walk to clear my mind. Overwhelmed isn't the word to describe what I'm feeling right now. It's more than that. I can't explain it but do you ever get that feeling where things seem to be closing in on you?

Like out of the blue? Well that has been the feeling I've had since I woke up this morning. Things just seem to be too much but who am I gonna tell? Not my mom. And no one seems to understand. The only people who would understand are- ugh! 

'Stop it Camila' I think to myself, taking a deep breath. 'You're fine. It's not a big deal' I keep telling myself as I find myself at another safe haven I had. The playground. It's currently around 9 pm so there aren't any people here.

Which is the best time to come. I go over to the familiar swings and sit down, just barely swinging. I was thinking for about 10 minutes before my phone dinged. Confused about who could be texting me right now, I pulled my phone out of my back pocket.

Message from Roger

Please let this be conformation or something. I thought before opening my phone to look at the message.

Roger: Somethings have changed Mila. Tomorrow night you'll be flying back to LA to have a meeting with a few more producers and you'll also be doing that radio disney interview that same night. Sorry about the sudden change. Want me to email your mom?

'You're kidding me' I think to myself feeling hot all of a sudden. I quickly texted "okay and yes please" before getting off the swing and making my way to the bench. I sat my phone next to me and closed my eyes, suddenly having to control my breathing pattern.

I don't know how much of this I can take. As hard as I tried, my thoughts started to take over. As they always do. 'What if I can't do this anymore' 'I can't take a break. I'm supposed to be a role model' 'People doubt me anyway, would it be terrible just to live up to their expectations'

My thoughts jumped around in my head only making it harder to breathe. I- I need someone. I wiped the hairs that were now sticking to my face because of my sweat and I shakingly picked up my phone and quickly went to contacts.

Before I could stop myself the voice on the other end answered. "Hello?" she said. "Dinah. I need your help"

A/N: Well look what I finally did lol. Took me all day but I managed to come up with a chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed it and make sure you listen to the song. It's what this chapter is based off. Feel free to comment. I love comments lol also remember to get your coins ready for Fifth Harmony and THTHTL because they're coming! I hope everyone has a great day <3