From Broken Hearted To A New Beginning

Chapter 4

Trey

  Its been a whole week and Angela still hasn't spoke to me. I was starting to get depressed and lose hope of us ever being friends again. I know that what I did to her was wrong and honestly I don't know why I did it. I loved that girl with all my heart but for some reason I couldn't get myself to tell her that I wanted to go with her. When she asked me if I wanted to be her boyfriend I wanted to scream to the top on my lungs "yes" but when I opened my mouth the complete opposite happen. "I'm sorry Angela, but I don't like you in that way. I just want to stay your best friend." were the words that came out. I wanted to slap the fuck out of me and tell her that that's not what I meant to say but it was too late. Angela's beautiful face had turned as red as a tomato and her eyes started to get watery. I knew exactly what was about to happen. "An..." was the only thing I was able to say before I seen her run down the sidewalk away from the school. Without hesitation I chased after her, but by the time I got to the end of the sidewalk she was gone out of my sight.

  "Aye Trey, wassup man?" my nigga James asked as I walked up to the entrance of the school. I looked at him with the "You know wassup look" and said "Angela" in the lowest voice possible. James knew the whole story about the incident, everybody did... and that was the fucked up part about it. The only thing that James knew that everyone else didn't was the part on how I wanted to say yes but couldn't. He tried to get me to forget about the situation and focus on workouts for the upcoming football season next year but James knows as much as I did that that wasn't possible. He knows how much I love Angela... I don't like her, I LOVE her; and so he understood why I felt the way I did.

  James and I walked into first period late as always and got lectured by the teacher but I didn't care. First period, Algebra 2, was the only period I had with Angela and even though I knew she wouldn't talk to me, I couldn't help but enjoy the moment of at least being in the same room as her. I walked into the class and looked directly at her. All eyes were on me and her like I expected them to be. I opened my mouth to tell her hey but she quickly turned back around and started talking to her friends like nothing happened. My heart dropped to my knees. I know I should've expected that but it still hurt to see her just ignore me like that.

  I pretended like I didn't care that she ignored me and went sat down in my seat. The whole class period I couldn't stop looking at Angela from the corner of my eye and thinking about  the good times we used to have. I don't know why I couldn't get her out my head. Any other day, I'd think about her when I seen her, then let her disappear from my mind until I got home. But today was different; its like she was glued to my mind and no matter what I did I couldn't get her out.

  By 7th period I felt like I was going to die. I didn't know what the hell was wrong with me. I raised my hand and asked Mr. Johnson, my Spanish teacher, if I can leave the class to go to the nurse. He accepted my request and gave me a pass to leave. As I was walking down the hall I heard, what  sounded like, crying. I hurried to the part of the hall where the sound was coming from and seen a girl curled up into a little ball crying her ass off. Her hair was hiding her face so I couldn't see who she was. "Hey, you ok?" I asked loud enough for her to hear. For a second I thought she didn't hear me so I started to ask again but before I could she answered me with "leave me alone". Right away I knew who the girl was. "Angela?" I slowly asked walking over to her. "What do you want?" she answered. "I heard somebody crying and I wanted to make sure they were ok; I just didn't know the somebody was you." I replied. Angela picked her head up from her knees and stared right in my eyes. Seeing her bloodshot red eyes looking at me almost made me pass out. I walked over to her and sat down. Surprisingly she didn't tell me to move;she just stared at me, I guess expecting me to say something, but I didn't know what to say. Suddenly I felt tears come to my eyes. I tried to soak them back in but it didn't work. I placed my head in my hands trying to hide my face but Angela wouldn't let me. "I know why you're crying Trey. You blame yourself for what happened between us and I don't blame you. YOU HURT ME. You made me feel like an ass....if you didn't want to be with me you could've told me so in private. Not in front of the whole school to where EVERYBODY  could hear you. Do you know how embarrassing that was? To have your heart broken to pieces by the one person you thought would NEVER break your heart. To have everybody laughing at you, calling you a hoe and a bitch and other names that you've never been called before because everybody liked you? That day.....that horrid day.. changed my life and my reputation! I'm just now getting people to talk to me again. The only person that stayed by my side the WHOLE time was Selena. You cant tell me you know how it feels to feel like that. You cant!" The whole time Angela was talking I could see the hurt that I caused her in her eyes. I couldn't help but keep crying that entire time. I felt HORRIBLE!  I didn't know that she felt that bad about the situation and how much I changed her life. I finally understood why she wouldn't talk to me ever since that day. While wiping my eyes with the back of my hand I asked, " So you didn't talk to me because you didn't want people thinking you still liked me and you didn't want them calling you a hoe?" "Pretty much", answered Angela " But honestly Trey, that's the thing... I DO still like you. And I don't want to... not anymore. What's the point of liking someone that doesn't like you back..." I stared deep into Angela's eyes and I could see that she knew what I was bout to say. "Trey.." was the only thing I let her say before I cut her off. "It's my turn to speak. Angela.... I love you. The very moment when I laid my eyes on you I knew that you were the girl I was going to spend that rest of my life with whether as a best friend or a girlfriend. I don't know what the fuck was wrong with me that day that you asked me out. I can assure you, ON MY LIFE, I wanted to tell you yes; but for some odd reason when I opened my mouth to tell you the complete opposite came out. Angela I'm sorry I hurt you. I really truly am. You stay on my mind 24/7 literally! I've been hoping for a second chance to tell you how I feel and to ask if we can be friends again.. best friends... maybe even more than friends. But now that I know how you feel, about the whole trying to get people to like you again, I understand if you still don't want nothing to do with me anymore." Before I got to say anything else I felt Angela's lips touch mine. I hesitated for a second then kissed her back. It was the best moment of my life! I felt like the girl of my dreams was back in my life and there was no way in hell that I was going to let her go.