Her Reality

Scared

1st time it was okay,

2nd time it was why,

3rd time it was forgive-able,

4th time it was confusing,

5th time it was heartbreaking,

6th time it was hard to bare,

7th time it was enough,

But it didn't end there.

She's scared,

She loved as hard as she could,

But he still didn't care.

When he was around she embraced his presence,

She flooded him with her embrace.

He was the first man she loved,

The first man that made her feel loved.

Just for the moment,

Cause it never last.

He'll be there one day,

And gone the next.

She's scared.

She let a man she adored into her life,

By purpose,

Not by choice.

She let a man know her ins and out,

And he used that against her.

It ain't easy to let another do that,

Than another after another and another.

She sighs after every heartbreak.

She isn't weak,

Mentally she is.

She is introduced to another,

She doesn't see him,

She sees her last.

She sees how she gave herself away,

She sees how he took her heart away,

She sees how she was blinded after many years,

And she sees why it was never worth it.

So she sees him,

And think nothing.

It became the usual.

Another pain wouldn't be new,

Another heart break wouldn't hurt as much,

Cause she experienced the greatest.

She cries at the thought of giving her heart to another,

Because the first she gave it to,

Gave her heart back.

Love was all she wanted,

But he denied the offer.

He would come around,

But only on his time,

He had others to take,

And didn't wanna receive one that was right in his face.

She holds herself at night wondering,

Will she ever look passed that.

He laid her down,

Gave her his first daughter,

But he didn't care,

Cause he broke her heart throughout her life.

So she wonders,

Why?

You made love to make me but to only break me?

To have another man come in her life she questions,

Does it mean another will break her heart as well?

Do you get it?

She just scared...

August 11th, 2017 @naeereckless