Her Reality

Dive

Be what you are,

Mean what you say,

If at the end you want them to stay.

More passion than I could handle,

Like a feening love from a lost father,

He was like no other.

Picking up the pieces that made him broken,

Wanting to bring peace to his heart,

He became paralyzed to ever be apart.

Words full of left over dinner,

Happened to complete the soul,

Like a leader that's in control.

Fascinated with being forever,

Seems like it took too long,

We came to be where we didn't belong.

Feeling a magical embrace,

One of a kind,

Wish time was able to unwind.

Sat and dealed my cards,

Love is a game,

I became everyone I claim is the same.

Saying what I assumed was real,

Brought me to awaken my own nightmare,

This I could not bare.

Say what you mean,

Mean what you say,

It'll bring an affect one day.

I loved more,

But he loves sincerely,

Now I miss him dearly.

Me without you,

Is like my heart without a beat,

Suddenly my words turned into deceit.

I held you up,

Than I got weak,

You than kissed my cheek.

It's your turn,

Now your holding me up,

But that wasn't enough,

Cause now we're broken up.

I told you forever,

You told me it's now or never.

I said don't leave me,

You said that's not the plan.

I'm up and gone,

While your still hanging on.

Not realizing my damaging,

That I left you to began managing,

This pain I created that I intend to not create,

I really dreamed for you to be my soulmate.

I made promises that are now broken,

Eventually your words became unspoken,

I left you like an open wound,

Thought I could come back and fix it,

But you made it clear it was omit.

You said don't say anything I don't mean,

I cry and say I meant everything.

You told me not to need you if I didn't believe it,

I told you I believed everything.

No matter what I say,

It's all too late,

Our forever has reached its expiration date.

I told you not to ever dive into my love,

Unless we're a team like I thought of,

Now your telling me the same thing.

Never did I imagine my first lover,

Would turn out to be the one hurting because of me,

I close my eyes every now and than,

Thinking this wasn't my game plan.

After a year,

I still cry heavily,

Because the love he gave me feels endlessly.

I told him not to dive,

Now it's just me,

Regretting not giving him the chance to strive into mine...

September 21st, 2017 @naeereckless