Her Reality

Fucked Up

From the very beginning it was fucked up,

Lookin back reminiscing,

The shit is just fucked up.

Fucked around and got attached to you,

Hoping you was gon be my forever boo,

But now I'm starring at ya pictures,

Wondering what the fuck was really the issue?

Told you everyday and every night that I love you,

The sound of ya voice was my favorite bed time story.

Couldn't get enough of you,

Didn't want to...

In a matter of time,

You walked away.

Can't say it wasn't because of me,

But damn,

Never thought I'd see you give up so easily.

I knew you wasn't perfect,

I knew you wasn't great,

Ain't gon lie,

If you ever came back it'll be a little too late.

Cause I didn't ask for it,

This shit is fucked up,

It wasn't fuckin easy,

On my mama this shit fucked up.

All night and all day,

I hear you say how much you need loyalty and honesty,

I gave you that shit,

How could you do that to me ?

I never stepped back,

I never wanted that,

And here you are,

Holding alone so strong.

As if I ain't never help put ya pieces together,

Told me ya love me now you don't even remember...

Held you down through it all.

Can't point fingers,

I had my special fucked up down falls.

Apologized when I knew I was in the wrong,

You dumb mothafucka,

Told you all my secrets,

Nigga don't act new,

You knew it all along.

I'm a victim through those sexy eyes,

You played a role,

It was you who was really in disguise.

You want a ride or die,

Clyde neva left his Bonnie,

Tough times doesn't mean leave when shit get rocky.

Don't ask for shit you can't handle,

I'm 19 to a man that's blind,

But Ima woman to a man who has real eyes.

Won't elaborate,

Smoke to that shit,

Sit back and than meditate.

People don't understand when I say this shit is fucked up.

I loved a man who waited for me,

Playa playa,

On my mama you wasn't really there for me.

Told me you did love me too,

Like what the fuck ?

What kind of love did people put you through ?

Every soul on this earth sin every day....

God may not get his way with us all,

But I guaranteed he'll never leave,

He here to stay.

It's in his words he mean what he say,

Guess if I don't have God's type of love,

He is my father,

He knows how to love his daughter.

I should chose wisely.

It makes since if love is real it won't ever die,

So ya love was never real,

All that shit was a bunch of lies.

Head held high,

To think you actually deserved loyalty and honesty.

Like I said...

This shit is just fucked up.

January 29th, 2018

@naeereckless