Her Reality

Remember

This the one,

Maybe not the last,

But I can't take it,

So you won.

So many times I cried myself to sleep,

Holding myself as tight as possible,

Praying to God this love is for him to keep.

Feeling like grenade,

This love was a game,

And I got played.

Maybe one day I'll understand why you hurt me,

Maybe one day I'll understand why it was me.

I begged you for an explanation,

After all that we talk about,

Now you have nothing to say,

Not like our typical day,

It's in your actions that you like to portray.

Remember when I was the only one who could cross your mind?

Remember when I was the only one having your time?

Fuck, was it real or was I blind?

Remember I told you who broke my heart?

And how I told you what made me dark.....

Like a thief in the night,

You took what was left in my heart.

Opened me up cause you was curious,

She looked good,

I mean she was mysterious.

Just like a toy,

When you get bored,

You toss it away like a little boy.

Don't know if I'm hurt or disappointed,

I'm confused but I been knew,

This was the shit you was gon do.

Remember you held me in the hallway telling me 'this a forever thing' ?

Was it all to fill ya voids?

My heart is weak,

Might as well be on steroids.

Wondering if ima fool,

I told you what I been through,

What's wrong with you?

Tried to protect my guard like I was security,

You took my hand and said, 'This ain't temporarily',

Now I need fuckin therapy.

Remember how you looked at me?

Like I was the only one in the world....

I gotta be honest,

Ima miss how this shit used to be.

Late talks about everything,

Damn man was we really just a fling?

It just don't make sense,

But I guess now I gotta talk about us in past tense.

They say salt and sugar look the same,

Plastic might as well be ya new name.

I'm talking my shit right now,

Really in disbelief like how?

Remember how we can laugh our ass off when we together?

Or how when you make me mad then an ugly ass smile appear?

You were like no other.

Just wanna know how did you do it?

I meant something to you,

Then you woke up one day and suddenly,

I meant nothing to you.

You tell me all the time not to settle,

All this talk,

You deserve a noble metal.

Don't get me wrong,

I still love you,

But its time I thug this shit out because,

With you is not where I belong.

February 22nd, 2020 @naeereckless