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chapter 27 | crazy

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"jaebum wait!"

"what do you want?" his tone was beyond explanation as he snapped at the younger boy.

freezing in his tracks, youngjae could only stare as his eyes filled with more tears, "i'm sorry!" he whimpered, "i honestly lost track of time, i didn't mean to—"

but standing there, in the middle of the street, mere minutes after they got off the bus — the group of seven were in the middle of chaos as jaebum let his emotions take over. "save your excuses youngjae! i thought i could trust with a simple task of being on time and not betraying my feelings for you, but look how this turned out!"

speechless, the younger only burst into sobs, but the other wasn't done even if it caused his heart to ache.

"why would you even do this? who was that guy from earlier on? is he more important to you than us?" jaebum spit in anger.

stuttering, youngjae couldn't explain with the weight of the older's irritation.

"let's just go home," jaebum only said to the rest as youngjae didn't move.

running to him, yugyeom softly urged him, "c'mon let's go."

but the other pushed himself away, starting to walk in an opposite direction; away from everybody as he wandered off even with yugyeom's pleads of "hyung! come back, hyung!"

he wanted to be alone, he wanted to cry and understand himself in what he wanted to say. he had no explanations, no reasonings behind his actions. just a guilty feeling poking through his conscious that he should have waited, should have been more careful and should have never arranged to meet up.

he didn't mean to do that, he didn't mean to betray jaebum like that, it wasn't supposed to turn out like that.

but now, he trudged alone through the almost-dead streets of the city weekend. with only one possible destination in mind.

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"is youngjae still not home?" jinyoung peeked into the living room where mark was napping while bambam and yugyeom sadly shook their heads.

with a sigh, the boy joined them and sunk into the warmth of his friends who were watching tv; snuggling into mark's side who was snoring quietly. jinyoung ran his fingers through the older's hair, trying to reassure himself that youngjae is fine, that he didn't get himself into trouble at such a late hour.

"where do you think he went?" bambam asked in an-almost whisper as replies of — "no idea," echoed from the others.

"aish," jinyoung wanted to curse, "i hate this. youngjae left us crying, jaebum's probably locked up crying. this isn't going to get us anywhere."

yugyeom perked up, "what are you planning to do, hyung?"

with a side smile, jinyoung gently got back up, carefully leaning mark's head onto a pillow as he hopped off. his feet hit the ground with a small thud each time he stepped closer to the bedroom shared between the fallen-apart boys.

"hey, jaebumie," jinyoung knocked, his forehead against the wooden door, "open up, do you know where youngjae could have went? i'm starting to get worried—"

there was a silence before a series of rattle locks murmured through, and the door was flung open; a distressed jaebum was standing behind the threshold, his hair a mess as his hoodie was crumpled — sleeves were clutched between his fingers. "youngjae is still not home?"

earning a shaking head, the older boy frowned.

"—but it's like almost midnight."

"—exactly," jinyoung reasoned.

looking down, jaebum felt his feelings dissipate into a sudden strong urge to find the younger boy, and tell him that he didn't mean to shout at him, but that he was still heartbroken and incredibly sad. he pursed his lips, eyes running back into his room as he grabbed a jacket and a pair of shoes, pulling a cap over his head and a mask over his mouth. he remembered youngjae's smile, his hardwork and his dedication. he remembered their lonely nights wrapped in each other's warmth and in a feeling that made butterflies erupt in his stomach.

"i might know where he is," jaebum whispered as he shut the door behind him, not understanding why he was so desperate to reach the boy who didn't seem to care about his trust in him as much as he did.

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just, just wait

written: august 19, 2017
published: september 11, 2017

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