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chapter 29 | fxxt it

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it was just a couple minutes past midnight when youngjae heard the door to the studio creaking open behind him. a sudden fear cut through him as he snapped his head at the disturbing noise; with dried tears plastered to his faced - he anticipated what's to come in complete darkness.

the figure that stood silently slowly trudged into the weak light of the window's street lights, revealing a face that youngjae was too scarred to see.

"jaebum?" he stuttered, his lips quivering as he got onto his feet and immediately attacked the boy into a hug, wrapping his arms around the older's shoulders as another surge of tears arrised to the surface. "is this a dream? oh jaebum- i'm so sorry- please forgive me, i'm really sorry-"

but as he wobbled on his toes, jaebum didn't return the hug but simply stood with his hands behind his back, his eyes drawn down onto the floor.

slowly, youngjae untangled himself, realising that this was in fact a really awkward occurence when he was the only one willing to mend their parting with skinship.

looking away, jaebum kept silent - too long for anyone's liking.

"it's fine, i get it," the younger began to turn away, "it was my fault and-"

"can you just shut up? i'm trying to gather up the courage to apologise!" jaebum only snapped, but without any bad intentions, instead his voice came out like a pouting whine.

youngjae looked at his shaking lips, and then his gaze dropped to the older's hands that snaked their way from behind his back and paused between both their faces.

"happy late birthday," jaebum whispered, a small cupcake with a single candle between his fingers.

too appalled, the younger boy switched his stares between the other in front of him and the strawberry-flavoured cake. "-but, how?"

coughing slightly, jaebum mumbled his explanations in a stumbling mess. "i didn't mean to listen in to you talking to your mom, but you weren't home and i was so worried and i thought if anything bad happened to you; i'd never forgive myself. so i went to look for you, and when i overheard you saying it was your birthday - i tried to run down to the bakery store down the road but surprise surprise it's closed, and this cupcake is the only thing i could find in the cafeteria kitchen and-"

jaebum was interrupted by youngjae's lips on his own.

so shocked by kiss, the older boy seemed to be in a trance as he managed to fumble the small cake onto the floor and use both hands to hold youngjae's cheeks.

"i'm so sorry, i never meant to upset you like i did," youngjae whispered into the other's lips, pulling apart as tears brimmed in his eyes once more.

with a thumb, jaebum wiped them away, "and i'm sorry, i should have been more understanding and careful. and definitely not jealous of you meeting your brother."

"you- you were jealous?"

blushing, jaebum admitted with a nod, "i like you, youngjae. more than just a roommate, more than just a friend. when you're crying - i feel like it's the end of the world. when you hold my hand, it makes me all nervous but safe at the same time-"

"-i like you too, jaebum," youngjae whispered, pulling him into an embrace as the older's hands wrapped around his lower back.

"-then why are we complicating so many things?"

separating for a moment, the two boys shared a look unlike any previous ones, and suddenly jaebum was attacking youngjae in a series of loving kisses, gentle at first as they grew into hungry and passionate outbursts. neither were willing to admit that they've been waiting for this moment for way too long.

youngjae's fingers brushed through jaebum's hair as the boy lifted him up, the younger's legs wrapping around his waist as they stumbled to the ground with a sudden laugh.

"you ruined the moment," youngjae pouted, lying beneath jaebum who scoffed in response.

"well you're heavy."

the younger boy let out a gasp, but before he could say anything back - jaebum already engulfed him in another kiss that didn't seem as enough.

"i- i love you."

youngjae couldn't believe the words fumbled out of his mouth as he avoided the other's eyes in fear. but instead, he only felt a pair of arms around his waist and a familiar breathing snuggling into his neck. jaebum smiled into his skin and intertwined their fingers.

"i love you too."

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written: august 20, 2017
published: september 13, 2017 (the whole country is getting results today, save me)

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