Raegan's pov:
Her hand on my knee and her weak smile I could tell someone was up.
Me: W-what?
(This does not happen I just came up with a stupid excuse for the story 😂)
Nurse: During Justin's surgery, we noticed his body wasn't taking it good. We just continued the surgery anyway. We were hoping this wouldn't happen but unfortunately it did. This happens to 1 in 100 people who get this surgery and it happened to him im sorry.
I was shaking and wanted to cry so bad but I needed to know what will happen.
Me: S-so what does this mean?
A tear slid down my face. She noticed, I could tell she felt bad.
Nurse: He needs another surgery and he needs it today. There is a 35% he won't live.
Me: W-what? No! No no no no no. I-is there anything else? Please
Nurse: I'm sorry Raegan but no there is nothing else. You may go see him before the surgery. The doctor is telling him now.
Raegan: O-ok.
I got up and so did she. I followed her to his room. I was ready to ball my eyes out but I just let tears escape my eyes and go down my face. I didn't really notice but I was shaking. Bad. I can't have nothing bad happen to my baby. My whole world. He can't die.
We got to his room and she let me in and then left. The doctor wasn't in their either so I'm guessing he already told Justin.
Me: B-babe?
He looks at me and breaks down. I go over to him and hug him like it's my last hug with him. No. It's not.
Justin: R-rae please I'm terrified I-i could die from this surgery. *crying*
Me: I know I know Justin but your not. Y-your gonna get through this babe. You can't leave me Justin. *crying*
Ok now I was crying really bad. There is a fucking chance I could loose my everything in this world. I can't stand to look at him right now he looks so broken and scared. It kills me.
Justin: R-raegan please do something I don't wanna die. I love you so much I can't leave you here alone.
Me: Justin t-there is nothing I can do. I promise you tho, y-you will make it out alive.
Justin: Promise?
Me: I-i.....I can't promise.
I looked down. He just cried even more. I turned his head so he was looking at me and I kissed him. I could tell he tried to calm down a little and kiss me back. He did a little. I tried to pull away but he wouldn't let me. We kissed for like 3 minutes straight. I eventually pulled away.
Justin: Is that gonna be our last long kiss?
Me: N-no baby please don't say that you can't leave this world. You are too young and you deserve to be in this world until you are ready to leave. You are not ready yet. God is not going to take you early Justin!
Justin: I love you Raegan.
Me: I love you too so much Justin.
The nurse came in just then.
Nurse: Are you guys ready we should start the surgery on Justin.
I look at him and he looks traumatized. He thinks he is going to die. No he's not. He-he can't!
Me: Can we have another minute?
She nods and leaves.
Me: Baby look at me.
He looks straight into my eyes.
Me: You're gonna make it through this surgery. Justin you are strong and not ready to leave this world yet. Please don't doubt yourself because I'm not!
Another tear falls from his cheek and mine too. I wipe his and he nods.
Me: I love you to much. Your everything to me you hear me? Your not going to die. Your too important to me and honestly if you die, so will I.
I looked down at that last part.
Justin: R-raegan?
He lifts my chin and I look at him.
Justin: If I don't make it you need to promise me. Promise me right now you will not hurt yourself in anyway possible. You won't try to kill yourself or even think of it. You hear me?
I nod.
Justin: Raegan I will always be with you if I don't make it I promise. I will be right by your side so really your not alone you just won't he able to see me. Promise me you will not hurt yourself or every forget about me.
Me: I-i promise Justin.
I felt like I was going break the promise about not hurting myself. NO WHAT THE FUCK AM I TALKING ABOUT HE IS GOING TO MAKE IT!
Me: Please try to fight you can't leave me.
Justin: I know I will try my hardest. I don't want to leave you.
I stand up and give him another big hug. I look at him and give him a small gentle kiss. It was enough though. I pulled away and walked to the door.
Justin: Raegan?
I look back at him and I see he's about to cry again.
Me: Y-yea?
Justin: You can't promise me I'll make it? Are you sure?
He looks down.
Me: I promise.
He looks up smiles a little.
Justin: Y-you do?
Me: Yes Justin I promise. I love you.
Justin: I love you too. Forever!
Me: Forever and always.
I open the door and look at him again and smile. He tries to smile back and I see a little smile. I shut the door. Why do I feel like I will never see him again. Do I feel this way because I won't? Should I have promised him? I don't know why will happen. I wanted him to feel better to I promised. No that's not the only reason. I also promised because I know he will fight through it and live.
I see the nurse and I tell her he's ready.
Me: One more thing?
Nurse: Yes?
Me: Promise me you will try your best and make sure he lives. I can't live without him.
Nurse: I will try my best Raegan. Anything else?
Me: Tell him I love him so much one more time before you start?
Nurse: If course!
She gives me a hug and walks into the room. I couldn't help but break down again. I ran to the waiting room and sat down. I cried and cried and cried. I tried not to be too loud. I just had so many thoughts. I was so scared. I was going to wait in the waiting room until he was done. I wansnt moving. I just sat there hoping and praying I didn't break that promise to my love.
Guys I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! Ughhhhh I cried pretty hard. It was hard making this chapter but I did! I'll try to update again today. Plz comment and vote 😊😐
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