Scars (A Jaegan Fan Fic)

Hair Cut

*Justin's POV*

"Jamie!! Get up! You can't just lock yourself in your room forever just cause you can't wear those boy clothes!" My mom screamed from the other side of my door.

I let out a groan as I fell back on my bed and looked up at my ceiling. I wonder what it would be like if I was just born a boy like I was supposed to be. Everything would be so much easier and better for everyone.

"Okay mom.. but it's not Jamie! It's Justin! Ive said that! I'm a boy mom!" I yelled as I stood up from my bed, about to get ready.

"For the millionth god damn time. You are a female! I would know cause I gave birth to you and you are my daughter! Your name is a Jamie and you are my daughter! A disappointing one at that." She screamed as she went back down stairs.

I let out a deep sigh, this was the best way to start my day ever! Yay! Don't you just love a good dose of transphobic parents to start your day? Doesn't every one?

Nah let's be real. It's not a phobia, it's just being a complete ass.

Can we all agree on that.

I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed as I looked at my long, thin hair and felt disgusted. That's it, today I am walking to a barber shop and getting my hair cut.

I don't care what my mom says.

I put on some sweat pants and a t-shirt along with a binder that I bought without my mom knowing. I grabbed my phone, wallet, and keys and I walked down stairs stating as quiet as I could. I didn't know where my mom was but I knew that she wasn't anywhere close to me so I was in the clear.

I walked down the street and looked around with a sigh. I hated this. Being a girl cause I couldn't transition. It sucked.

All of my family would always call me things like 'beautiful girl' 'pretty lady' 'doll' and things like that. They never understood why I hated being called those things. But I did.

Once I arrived at the hair salon I smiled at the lady and she smiled back at me "what can I do for you young man?" She asked as I smiled.

"Uhm i have been growing my hair out for a few years so that I could donate it and i would like to get. More masculine hair cut once again and donate my hair" I lied. I didn't want anyone else judging me for being trans so I didn't take my chances cause that's believable.

she smiled and nodded "okay that's great! What's your name sweetie?" I smiled "Justin." The lady was very nice. She said that I was in luck cause there was no appointments going on so I was able to get it done just then and she would do it herself!

I sat down in the chair and show her pictures of what I wanted and she nodded. Next thing I knew, all of my hair was in a braid, cut off and in front of me on a table. Finally. It was gone.

After about 20 minutes she showed me my finished hair cut (the hair that he had when it was colored different colors but it's dark brown) and I smiled at her.

"Thank you so much. How much do I owe you?" I asked as she smiled "it's on the house Justin." She leaned in and whispered in my ear "I saw your binder and I know that you are trans.. I'm actually male to female transgender myself. Being in a home that isn't safe really sucks and I would know, just hold on, okay? I promise it will all get better Justin."

I immediately smiled and I hugged her "thank you so much!" She giggled "you're welcome."

I got up to walk out but I left money in the tip jar cause the things she said to me made me realize that it does get better for everyone, it just takes some time.

She smiled and winked at me and I smiled back as I walked out. I put back on my hat and I started walking back in the direction I came when I got a call from my dad. I answered.

(J-Justin D-Dad)
J-hey dad, what's up?
D-hey kiddo, uh.. can you do me a favor?
He sounded concerned and kind of jittery which made me a little worried.
J-sure dad... whats going on?
D-your mom is.. she's doing some things right now that I don't want you surrounded by. Do me a favor and go to Damon's place until I call you again and tell you differently. I already talked to his parents to it's fine. You understand?
I was honestly kind of worried but I obeyed
J-okay dad. Love you.
D-love you too

And with that, he hung up.

I walked to My best friend, Damon's, house. As I approached the door and I knocked it, I was greeted by Damon's mom. "Hey! Come in! Did you get your hair cut? I love it" she said with a smile on her face and I smiled back and nodded "thank you."

She showed me up to Damon's room and I walked in. He hugged me and at the same exact time we spoke "I have something to tell you, no you first! No you! Fine. I'm trans!" We just paused for a moment and started laughing.

We were both FtM and best friends we had a YouTube channel with my twin brother called 'the Blake boys' and I ended up gaining a lot of internet fame off of this which was amazing cause it helped me build friendships online that I couldn't in real life.

A few hours later my dad called me and I picked up the phone.

J-hey dad, is everything okay?
D-hunny.. I'm sorry but some things have happened.. I will explain more later on but right now I need you to come home and pack up everything you would need from this house if you were to never come back. Do it as fast as possible. I'll give you more info later.

And with that, he hung up.

I told Damon and we said our goodbyes. I then ran to my house and packed everything I would need. I left all of my female clothes and only brought men's cause I'm assuming that I don't be judged for that... I hope anyways.

Once I was done I went outside and my dad sat in the car. I got in the passenger seat and gave him a confused look. "Dad. What's going on?" I asked and he sighed "we are moving. Your mother is staying here with your twin. Me and you are moving to Maryland." I was shocked.

"What!? Why?" I asked and he shook his head "I will tell you more later.."

As we drove I looked over to my dad. "D-Dad..." I mumbled and he looked over at me for a moment then back to the road. "Yes Justin?" He said as I took a deep breath.

"Dad. I'm transgender." I rushed out the words and he started laughing with a smile on his face. "I know. Ever since you were a toddler you refused to wear girly clothing and you always asked why you weren't a boy. I know. That's one of the reasons we need to move. It's for your safety, Justin" he replied and I looked at him fast "you know my preferred name?"

He nodded "your mom was complaining about the fact that you asked her to call you that. I got it. But hey, here it will be a new school and new state. That means that you can just be a boy and no one will say anything." He said with a smile and I smiled back.

"That's true! But I am gonna miss Damon." I sighed "I know you will jay, but it will be okay. You guys will see each other again. I promise."

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