*Justin's POV*
As much as Raegan and everyone else made me happier than ever, I still felt out of place and like I didn't belong. All of my friends truly had something to look forward to, something to be happy about for the future. I didn't.
My whole life the same thing has happened in the same exact cycle. I get something or someone amazing, I get attached, I lose them or I do something wrong to make them leave.
If this cycle of depression continues, then everyone will be leaving me in no time and I will be all alone once more.
Once the party was finished and people started to leave, Raegan decided to bring me home so I could spend time with Danny, Damon, and my father. I'm the moment it seemed like an idea that would benefit me but in reality it was going to do the opposite to me.
Raegan drove me home and I told everyone I felt kind of sick cause I had 'too much taco bell' as I told them and they all nodded in agreement as I said my goodbyes to them and walked upstairs, planning to make that one of the last goodbyes I would speak.
Raegan truly made me happy, he did!
And this week truly was fantastic, it was!
But I know that in the future I will probably just hold raegan down and limit him from the possibilities he will be greeted with. I don't want to be the reason Raegan will be held back in life, I want him to strive and grow like the world plans for him.
I took a deep breath as I took out a piece of paper and decided to write my last words to the people I cared about and say a farewell to my friends like I knew I needed to.
Suddenly I heard an alarm go off on my phone as I got a notification from Raegan...
Raegan sent me a video of him singing one of my favorite songs out of all the ones he would sing to me, Purpose by Justin Bieber. But little did I know, that's not all the video was. So, I decided to click on the video and watch what raegan sent to me.
Raegan sat there with a smile on his face as he started to speak...
"Justin Drew Blake, The love of my life who doesn't think that he is anything in this world to anyone. The boy who hides his feelings away from the world cause he's scared someone will use them against him. The boy who doesn't believe that anyone ever benefits from having him in their life. The boy who underestimates himself in every single sense of the term. The boy who is absolutely perfect that I have fallen head over heels in love with. My boyfriend.
Justin, you mean so much more to me than you will ever possibly know. You want to know how you benefit me? Then I think this song says it all...." raegan pressed something on the computer as he looked back to the camera.
Justin felt himself tearing up as he watched the video but decided to continue it...
"Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath
Feeling like I'm walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I've wept
Look at all the promises that I've kept
I put my heart into your hands
Here's my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You're not hard to reach
And you've blessed me with the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you've given me purpose
Thinking my journey's come to an end, oh
Sending out a farewell to my friends
Forever peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins
Oh would you please?
I'm more than grateful for the time we spent
My spirit's at ease
I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You're not hard to reach
And you've given me the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way
Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything"
Once Raegan was done singing he looked back at the camera, his eyes were glossed over with tears as he smiled and took a shaky breath.
"Justin Drew Blake, you give me purpose. I love you, please never leave my side. I will do anything to be with you, I love you."
Justin turned off the video and let out a shaky sob as he fell to the floor and held his knees close to his chest as he cried. "I love you too Raegan, I love you more than anything...."
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