Loving Him

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AN: Hey sunshines! I am so terribly sorry that it took at least more than 2 months for me to update this chapter. I had a lot of things come up. I started university & I'm majoring in nursing (the nursing program I'm aiming for is very competitive so I was immersed in a lot of schoolwork). I also got a job which literally sucked the soul out of me & also sucked out my will to write. And on top of that, I was recently involved in an accident & that affected my mental health a whole lot. I spent many days guilting over it. So I hope y'all understand but from now on, I will definitely try to update more frequently! Thank you so much for reading, I love you guys so much. ♡

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For days, I stayed cooped up under my covers. I didn't have the energy to do anything anymore, not when my baby was gone. Throughout this & quite surprisingly, Adam gave me my space. Maybe he did have feelings after all.

While I was purposely bedridden, I had a lot of time to think. And I decided that I wanted a baby. I wanted to try this time instead of just fooling around in the moment of sexual drive. Motherhood was still a lock that I yearned to open & the reminders were all around me, mocking my loss. Every time my gaze fell upon a mother & her child, jealously pricked at my heart which gave me a burning feeling of determination to also have a small hand enclosed in mine.

Though, the major turn off for that determination was the flashback I got from a few days after the miscarriage. The day when I asked Adam how he suddenly was able to function & move around when he was paralyzed just a few hours ago on that day.

I stared at the white, empty ceiling which reflected my own empty heart. My hair lay splayed out behind me on the pillow & I wanted to tie it up but all the wires that were connected to me prevented me from doing so without a tinge of pain. I sighed. My lips trembled & tears invaded my vision. What happened hours ago was still not letting me go. It would haunt me.

The door suddenly opened & I had no choice but to blink away my tears & tilt my head up to prevent them from traveling down my cheeks. I turned my face to the intruder once I managed to compose myself & my heart leapt slightly when I saw Adam carrying some takeout.

"Chinese?" I asked with a forced smile.

Adam nodded briskly & set the takeout bag on my side table. I pulled myself up using the remote for the hospital bed. Moving the side table in front of me & lowering it, I started to eat the warm, steamy, Chinese takeout.

"You know, I'm glad to know you weren't cheating."

The spoon full of rice stopped abruptly near my open mouth & I set it down, slowly. I looked at Adam's figure, as perfect as ever, sitting down on the couch with his arms crossed over his chest.

After a few moments of intense staring, I asked. "What...what do you mean."

God knows I wasn't cheating. I don't cheat, it's not a thing I'm fond of. Being married to someone or hell, even being in a relationship with someone is a huge thing. You can't pledge loyalty & still play around with the other's emotions. Cheating had to be one of the most disgusting concepts ever.

"Since you are stupid, let me lay it out for you. I'm glad you weren't spreading your legs for other men like Brayden." Adam stated gruffly.