The Game of Love

You and Me Ch 19

After a drive later I find myself here sitting in the parking lot trying to think of what to say to her, how to apologize but the words weren't there. Its not that I'm a pussy and don't know how to talk to a women, its just this is Jess. My brother's ex, the one that I've  wanted. The one that I still wanted. The girl that ended up with that basterd like brother. And the one person that I just hurt for being a jealous asshole.. God I hope she listen..

I took a deep breathe and manned the fuck up. "Its now or never" I told myself.
I took out the little piece of paper where I wrote down the room number as I wait for the elevator lost in thought..

The DING of the door opening brings me back and I step inside. Pressing the floor number I feel like a dead man walking..

Once it reached my desired floor I take in another deep breath and walk out the elevator and down the hall.
I look for her room number and then I see it.

There if us, mentally preparing myself. I wait outside before knocking. "Do it, what are you waiting for, she is just on the other side". I tell myself and then I knock on the door and after I step aside not letting her see me through the peep hole on the door. Because I have a feeling if she sees me she won't open the door. And just like that she opened...

I'm starting face to face with a hurt women. Her beautiful light has diminished, her gorgeous smile gone. The color from her beautiful lips whipped off.. She looked broken. Then I see the anger in her eyes, followed by the anger in her voice.

"What do you want? I thought I told you to leave me alone?" She hissed as she crossed her arms.

"And how the hell did you know where I was?" She asked angrily.

But I was lost for words, I did the only thing I could think of. I grabbed her and kissed her. Full blown straight on her lips kissed her. I pour all of myself into that kiss, hoping she could feel how sorry I was and I could feel she was taken back. She was trying to pull away but I grabbed the back of her neck so she couldn't get away. After a couple of minute I start to think that this was probably a bad idea and I start to loosen my grip until I feel her giving in, and wrapping her hand wrap around my neck and she releases a little moan. Yes... That's all I could think about as I lose myself in her. What was only minutes felt like hours. Until she manages to pull back.

"Fabian, what the hell?" She asked confusion filled her eyes.

"I think we both know the answer to that question" I replied.

She is still staring at me waiting for me to continue speaking.

"Jess, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was an inconsiderate asshole. I'm sorry I was "that guy" but, I can't anymore. I couldn't back at the resturant and now I know why" I said.

She has a look of confusion still.
"What?" Was all she said...

"Listen, I know why your upset, I know why you don't want me even near you. And baby I'm sorry. I'm sorry for realizing it too late. I'm sorry for not stopping you and telling what I was feeling" I stated.

"Fay, I don't understand. I can't do this not with you. Please explain or leave. I just can't"-"I'm trying to explain Jess but I don't know what words to use for you to understand me right now" I said cutting her off.

"Then just say it. Stop going around it and just say it, please I can't do this." she begged.

It hurt me to hear her begging... I never wanted her to beg me at least not like this..

"Baby, what I'm trying to say is that I love you, I have been in love with you for as long as I can remember. And I didn't want to admit it to myself because you were my brothers girlfriend. One that he didn't deserve. One that was too good for him. The one that he betrayed and hurt like as if you didn't matter" I said bring my hand to her cheek.

"I know that you would have never seen me as anything other then your ex's brother..." I added.

She releases a breathe she was holding, then looks deep into my eyes.

"Fabian Hernandez this better not be a fucking cruel joke.. Please tell me your not kidding, I can't handle that right now?" She whispers.

"This will only be a cruel joke if you tell me that you don't feel the same. The only person that will be hurt here is me. So please I need to know" I asked...

"Fabian, I never thought out of all the guys to bump into that I would bump into you. I never thought I would ever feel what I feel for you not in a million years." I see a tear come down. Fuck I hate myself for doing this to her. 

"You have always flaunted your flings, you were a man whore growing up that I never thought you would be capable of loving someone. But when I saw you something in me turned. I have tried so hard to fight these feeling I have for you that its been driving me crazy. I never thought you would ever see me in the same light as I see you. But when you talked about this little game, this revenge you have against your brother I knew that you would never be for me. And now you tell me this. I don't know what to think. I'm confused, I don't know if am being used or"- "No, I'm going to stop you right there. Don't you even dare to think that I'm saying all this as an excuse to continue this shit." I had to cut her off I couldn't believe what she was thinking.

"I know the timing is off but fuck Jess can't you see it. Your seriously going to tell me you don't see it? I fucking love you. I am in love with you. That story about losing the girl I love to my brother yes it happened but its half truth. Yes I lost her to him but I had already lost someone else. And it was you. Jess, I don't give a damn about the plan, the revenge. I only care about you. If you were to tell me that you didn't want to do it, that you wanted to put a stop to this plan then we stop it, but only to make this real.. But I'm not going to lose you. Not now that I can see you feel the same as I do. Jess please, I need to hear you say it.. Say that you forgive me for being an asshole, say that you want to be with me, that you want make this real, that I'm not imagining this, say that even though I'm an asshole, an inconsiderate fucker that you love me... " this time I was the one begging her. But I didn't give a fuck. This is the women I loved, the one that because of my fucking brother got away and I was never able to tell her how I felt. The one women that can be my undoing...

I felt like time stood still... I couldn't breathe and thank god I was stand next to the door because if this would of been outside I probably would of falling back from the suspense..

And then she opened her mouth to speak and that was the moment time stood still........

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Hey guys, sorry I took so long to upload. But there you go another cliffhanger...  I hope y'all liked it... Sorry for the errors I am not at home and as working from my phone... Please vote and comment....