One and the Same

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Lukas didnt know what to say to his girlfriend anymore, he was afraid she was gonna give up.
Gaga rolled off him and laid beside him like a limp fish, he looked at her. All she did was sleep, drink gallons of water and cry, that's all she did...
-'Stef. Can I talk to you baby?', Gaga grunted, like it hurt her to even exist, -'How are you feeling?', -'Pain...just pain', -'Where, what hurts?', -'You know what hurts' she sobbed, putting a hand up her chest, Lukas sighed very deeply, -'Stefani, sometimes I'm scared you're gonna die because of this', -'I probably am' she said with a drowned voice, -'We will overcome this...', -'h-how can anyone say that? Our baby is dead, they yanked it out of me with a vacuum and discarded it like-', -'I know, I know. It was my baby too...it was my baby too' he laid his head on her shoulder and sobbed, her heart softened because Lukas almost never cried, -'I'm sorry, I just dont know what to do' Gaga sighed deeply and wiped her eyes, -'and now Maria is behaving like she is and I'm just tired', Lukas kissed her shoulder bone and held her face, -'It hurts a lot now. But it will heal eventually okay baby?', Gaga nodded and cleaned off the snot running down her nose, -'I'm a mess' she sighed, Lukas shook his head, -'You're perfect...', -'I failed you', -'Huh???', -'My body failed you, thats why the baby died and-', -'Oh my God sweetie it was nobody's fault, come on dont say that', -'What am I if I cant do what women do? Huh Lukas? Why do you still love me?' . That last sentence broke his heart. She blamed herself, she thought of herself as a murderer and a failure and this was not good for someone who got depression from time to time.

Maria opened her laptop and into a group Skype call.
-'HI DAD! I miss you guys so much...when do y'all think I can go back there?'.