One and the Same

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-'Mom, do you need me to call your doctor? Where's your Xanax or Valium or whatever shit you take?', Gaga wiped her tears and fell silent, -'You really think this is a joke' she whispered into the phone, -'No, I think you REALLY need the help...why are you yelling and crying like crazy?', Gaga sniffed, -'I want you back! Come back to me, please! I promise I'll be better, tell me what I'm doing wrong'. Gaga didn't thought she'd be the one begging her child to come back to her. Maria went quiet. She knew exactly how her mother must be looking right now. Pictured how her big green eyes were popping out of its irritated sockets, how Lukas must be speechless thinking of something to say, -'I just like it here mom' she said, plain and honest, -'But-but when are you coming back?' Gaga responded with a weak voice, -'I'll let you know' and Maria hung up.

Lukas held his girlfriend in his arms, -'We can go there baby, any time you want', -'She wants to be there, not with me...why w-would I wanna go get her?', -'Cause she's your daughter and you love her', Gaga hugged him tight, -'I adore her with all I have...why is this happening to me God, what have I done wrong to deserve all this...', -'What are you talking about baby, come on', -'I have no children now. Lost our baby, lost my baby...I'm alone. Completely alone'.
Lukas frowned and sighed sadly, -'Come here' he held her and let her lay on top of him, -'Let's have a nice cuddle party, what do you say?', Gaga sniffled again and nodded, -'Okay', -'That's my girl...that way you'll know you're not alone'. Gaga twirled her fingers between Lukas' long ashy blonde hair, -'I love you' she sobbed, -'I love you too baby...everything's gonna be okay', -'You promise?', Lukas chuckled -'I swear to you, everything's gonna be fine...tomorrow's a new day', Gaga dried her tears and nodded, -'I'm suddenly tired of crying', -'It's alright, you can sleep on me, youre not crushing me', Gaga let out a giggle and kissed him gently, -'At least we know she's okay', Lukas nodded, -'She's more than okay. You know how fierce that girl is', -'More than anyone', -'So she can take care of herself, she's smart', -'Mhmmm....Lukas?', -'Whats up', -'I'm still sorry about our baby'.