One and the Same

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-'She fell asleep waiting for you' Lukas said, closing Maria's bedroom door, Gaga looked down and sighed deeply before kissing her soon to be husband, 'Stef, she's been feeling very sad lately', -'Why?', -'Her father situation. It's really eating her alive, like she's very hurt about him rejecting her a second time. She needs you', -'Needs me?', Lukas nodded -'As crazy as that may sound. That's what she told me yesterday during dinner', Gaga nodded with teary eyes and went with Lukas to the bedroom.
Gaga breathed heavy after an intense and passionate session of sex with her fiance, -'So I have three shows here. I'll be here for a whole week' she announced with a grin and a wink, Lukas chuckled and kissed her boobs, -'I love you so much, you perfect human being', Gaga giggled and caressed his hair, -'I'm tired babe. Let's just sleep', -'Of course, you made me tired as well', Gaga stuck out her tongue, -'I love you baby', -'Love you too'.
Gaga immediately fell into a deep slumber.

She woke up with a racing heart. That nightmare was absolutely terrifying and it didn't even involved monsters or anything of that sort. Just loneliness. And abandonment. Maria shot out of her bed, ran through the hallway and opened the master bedrooms door, she was very relieved her mother was there, it would've been awkward to wake up Lukas. Gaga shot up from the bed, sitting against the headboard completely startled at the main light going on. Maria immediately climbed on the bed and into her lap, hugging her while sobbing uncontrollably. Gaga blinked a few times to make sure she was awake enough. Lukas woke up too and looked at the pair in confusion, Gaga shrugged gently, -'Baby what's wrong?', -'Mommy' she cried, not feeling very sorry for all the snot she was leaving on her mother, -'What happened Maria? Are you hurt?', Maria shook her head and held her mother tighter. She remembered when she was four and would run into Gaga's arms like this after a nightmare. Now she was a few inches taller than her mom, and also a few pounds heavier, -'Mommy please' she cried, -'Please what? What's up?' Gaga grew worried and squirmed herself out of the hug, grabbing her daughter's face in her hands. Her big green eyes were red, her nose was swollen and cheeks were wet with tears, -'Maria Grazia, what's happening?', -'I had a nightmare mommy, I dreamed I was alone', Lukas frowned and held Gaga's hand, -'Alone? How alone?', -'Just, in the dark. I was completely alone, I had no one. Not even you were there', the girl was crying hysterically, desperately clinging onto Gaga like she was gonna dissapear into thin air at any second.
-'You'll never be alone baby, you'll always have me', -'D-Dad hates me. He left me again mommy, you were so right', Gaga nodded. So this was the root of the nightmare. -'I'm never leaving you. Ever ever. You know why? Cuz' you're the most mine thing that I have', Maria processed the words, -'The most mine?', -'Yeah...you came from me. You're MY daughter. Part of my soul, and part of my heart okay?', Maria nodded and sobbed on her mom's shoulder, -'I'll never abandon you', -'No but I've been a cunt brat these days', Gaga chuckled, -'That's not a lie, baby', -'How can anyone love me then? All I do is fucking hurt', Lukas tried to talk but Gaga stopped her quietly, this was a long-deserved one on one talk.
-'I have adored you with every fibre, cell and drop of blood in my body since when you were just a little pea-sized thing inside me alright? That feeling has not changed. And it never will', -'You yell at me and slap me and I'm afraid you're always gonna kick me o-', -'Well that's based on your own actions. I could never kick you out. As I said, you're a part of me. I'll never leave you' she looked at her daughter again and kissed her, -'It was just a bad dream Maria-', -'Can I sleep with you tonight' Maria asked rapidly, Lukas shrugged and moved to the edge of the bed, Maria frowned, -'The sheets are not wet, right?', Lukas let out a cackle and pinched her hand playfully, -'The sheets are fine, you smart ass'.
Maria cuddled tightly into her mom. She really couldn't find a safer place in the world right at that moment.