One and the Same

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Lukas was talking outside of Gaga's room. He could hear the sobs grow more desperate.
-'How did she get pregnant? i thought I was infertile', The doctor nodded, -'...Low sperm count but....it happened, you probably won't be able to accomplish that again, it's very rare', Lukas rolled his eyes, -'Gee, thanks man' he said, not liking what the doctor said, -'I have to be realistic here', Lukas sighed, -'What happened doc? How did this came to be?', -'Well...it was a spontaneous miscarriage, meaning, not intentional. It just happened. Now by my calculations, the conception happened about two months ago, so...yeah, I think it was caused by stress or something. So you brought her here, what she was feeling were contractions trying to expel everything inside of her, so we dilated her cervix forcefully and removed all the tissue with a special vaccuum', Lukas' eyes watered, -'She doesnt deserve this', -'Nobody does Mr. Nelson...I'm sorry', -'I have to be with her now' he said with a thin voice.

Gaga just sobbed into Lukas' arms, -'I lost our baby, I'm sorry- I'm sorry' she kept saying, the guilt was splitting her in half. It was like a fire burning her alive. Lukas shook his head, -'It's not your fault babe these things happen', Gaga shook her head, -'It was our only chance for a little family but I blew it, I'm sorry, I'm sorry', -'Hey, we have a family with Maria...come on', -'She's in NJ, she rather be with her dad than here', Lukas looked down, -'We havent gotten a hold of her. She keeps hanging up, and Angelo as well', Gaga just cried harder, -'I lose a baby and cant keep the other one' tears and snot ran down her face, -'Crying hurts' she sighed and tried to calm herself down, Lukas dried her tears with a tissue and just observed her, -'Everything hurts' she complained, her voice sounded like she was drowning, -'I can imagine...they did some things to you', -'Yes they put a fucking vaccuum down there, I know' she sighed and rolled her eyes, -'How are we gonna overcome this' she sobbed, her eyes watering again; -'Day by day. I'll cancel my shows, I'll be there for you', -'No, no, you do your shows', -'You are more important than anything. You hear me? I'll stay with you, you'll get better', Gaga just sighed deeply and turned her back to him, -'My lower body hurts so bad' she cried again, -'I'll get you something, just don't panic', -'I'm not' she closed her eyes, her body feeling like it was an anchor, caving into itself.

Natali tried to call Maria for the third time, she looked at Joe and shook her head, -'She keeps hanging up. The texts enter but she's not answering them', -'She thinks Stef is mad at her...', -'Yes...', Joe sighed deeply and put his head between his hands, -'This is too much. Let's not talk to her about it', -'Dad, we have to tell Stef her daughter's not answering...', -'She just lost a child, do you think she wants to hear about not being able to talk with the other one?', Cynthia grunted, -'just stop bickering... we have to go in there and give her our support. It's not time for drama'.

Gaga hugged Cynthia tight and cried on her shoulder, Cynthia nodded gently, -'I know...you'll be fine', -'I won't', -'Yes you will. You hear me? You've overcome so much', Gaga shook her head and started bawling again, -'I dont think I can get over this mom', Lukas handed her a glass of water before stroking her hair gently and talking to Joe about everything; -'Have you talked to Maria' she asked weakly, she looked like she had died, left underground for a few days and dig back up. She looked extremely tired and like she was about to break, -'...We cant get a hold of her. I think she's angry or afraid of you...I dont think she wants to come back'.