One and the Same

16

Maria closed the Skype call. A huge smile plastered on her face. She sighed deeply and felt completely pleased with her first real interaction with her father.
She grabbed her kitten and put him in his favorite place: his jacket pocket.

Gaga tried very hard not to cry. She was going through Maria Grazia's baby album.
-'Come here, girl' she called her daughter who was getting something to snack on in the kitchen.
Maria frowned, -'Whats that?', -'Your baby album! Come here....' Maria sat beside her mother.
-'Look at how big I was', Gaga chuckled, showing Maria pictures of her big belly 16 years ago.
-'You were only 17...such a baby yourself', Gaga nodded and held her daughter's hand.
-'See I was in labor here, I was so completely terrified. Literally the scariest moments of my life...I was so anxious to know you and see what you would be like', Maria chuckled but the frowned at the next set of pictures, -'Mom who took pictures of your vagina, seriously', Gaga cackled, -'Your grandma! She was documenting everything it was kind of annoying', -'Ugh. It looks disgusting', -'Hey thts where you came from okay? Now shhh', Maria smiled and pinched her mother's arm.
-'And now there you are! Looking all pink and covered in goo', -'I was so cute! Look at how chunky!', -'...At that moment I didnt know what to do with you. I was completely speechless and like frozen in time", -'But you loved me?', -'I adored you. Still do. But I was scared...', -'...Where are you going with all this? Why are you showing me-', -'Your father was nowhere to be found...ever. Never helped with anything, never even contacted me. What I wanna say is dont make this into an illusion. He might, just might dissapoint you', Maria snorted, -'So this is what you called me for. To keep me away from my dad? Mom why cant I just have what I want for once?', -'You have everything! I-', -'Yeah but I want HIM. I wanna meet HIM. I have the fucking right!'c Gaga frowned, -'Dont talk to me like that Maria Grazia or we'll be having some problems you hear me?!', Maria lowered her head, -'He lives in NJ. I wanna go see him','....if you think you can handle it. But you'll be going with me'.
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Maria Grazia laid on her bed beside her pet cat while watching some Netflix on her 70inch TV.
-'I guess being a cat is much less complicated' she said lazily. Suddenly she felt deeply alone even when Tux was cuddling beside her. M

Gaga knocked on her door, -'Baby come down, we got some pizza', -'Fine, I'll be right there', Maria sighed deeply -'I'll be right down'.

*****
As Maria dined with her mother and Lukas silently. She was scrolling through her instagram feed, -'So how have you been feeling?' Lukas asked her to break the silence, -'Fine I guess, I've been taking some other medication for my liver and such but overall, it's been pretty fine', Lukas smiled and nodded, -'Good to hear....and your father? I heard that-', Gaga grabbed his hand and shook her head, he understood immediately as Maria looked at both of them and sighed. -'Y'all are making this way more awkward than it should be and y'all need to stop', Gaga shrugged, -'Fine. We wont ask anymore', Maria frowned and showed her mother an Instagram post, Gaga squinted at the picture, -'Yes?', -'I want lip injections', Lukas sighed deeply and looked at Gaga, -'No way Maria...you have beautiful lips and-', Maria rolled her eyes, -'I have a bunch of lipsticks that dont fit me well because I have bad lips', -'You complain too much', Maria shrugged and kept scrolling, -'You're quiet, daughter', -'Mom, do I have to be talking all the time? Like is that what you want?', -'No, its just so unlike you and-', Maria teared up, -'This dad situation has me fucked up, mom'.