Time Cannot Resent [Gay Love]

Kathrine

" Shit. " I cursed as I closed the door behind me. I stood there for a while to think about what happened today. But seriously, I don't even know what exactly happened. 

So a quick recap is I got my coffee at the usual store, bumped into Skeith or more like he stalked me, he fainted so I had to carry him to the infirmary, we slept together, I hugged him for more than an hour before we went home, and finally I accompanied him home. 

WAIT. I slept with him?! Plus I hugged him for more than an hour. 

Oh my god. What the heck is happening to me? Why is everything happening so fast? He just confessed yesterday yet we're already this close. But I can't help treat him differently. It's like I've known him ever since. I feel so protective of him. It's kind of weird and funny. But I'm pretty much sure that we haven't known each other before this school year. But it's really weird. I can't shake the feeling that... I know him from somewhere. 

Arghh! Skeith! I'm going nuts thinking of you! 

Why? Why did it have to be a guy? But I guess there's no helping it. 

I started to move around my room. I tried to think of a different topic to ponder on. I need to get my head out of Skeith! 

I stopped for a bit as I noticed a date encircled on my calendar.

November 27th 

What was on that day again. 27th is... is... what was it again?

I thought about it for a while. 

I finally remember. It's Kathrine's... death anniversary. I can't believe I forgot about it. How could I have forgotten about it? Before it was practically impossible for me to forget. But... But this year I forgot.

I feel like the worst person alive for forgetting something so important. I'm so sorry Kathrine. 

Kathrine... She... She was my ex girlfriend. I really loved her so much. But I wasn't sure if she really loved me because you see we had a pretty big gap. 10 years to be exact. But that didn't matter to me. It really didn't bother me. And I was really happy whenever we were together. I remembered that she also had this little brother. But I somehow forgot his name. But he was really cute, like his sister. I think he would be the same age as Skeith now, 16. 

We really had a great relationship, Kathrine and I. I thought everything would last but I was wrong. She left me 8 years ago because of an accident. I miss her so much.

I sighed heavily as I got something from my drawer, it was Kathrine's picture. 

" I'm sorry I forgot. I... I miss you. " I said as I stared at her smiling face on the photo. It felt so lonely talking to a piece of paper. I wanted to touch her, the real Kathrine.

I felt something warm fall down my cheek.

Tears? Yes, tears. I was crying. I hugged her photo pretending it was really her and repeated the words " I miss you. " over and over again. 

I felt something buzz in my pocket breaking my moment of tears. I slowly released the photo and put it back in my drawer. I got my phone and checked who it was.

It was Skeith. 

Somehow... I felt happy. 

Did you arrive home safely? 

He said in his text.

I typed in " Yeah. " and sent it.

After a few seconds, I felt my phone vibrate again.

Did you eat dinner already? 

Not yet. 

I replied.

I felt another buzz.

Oh. Then you better eat. Text me when you're done. :) 

Sure. 

I threw my phone on my bed and began to eat the food that I bought on the way home. My mouth felt so dry. I really didn't have the appetite to eat but I know that I have to. It sucks sometimes.

When I finished eating I texted Skeith again.

I'm done. 

I said.

I waited for a while for his reply. I wonder what he's doing right now. Is he studying? Is he eating? Is he bathing? 

Oh shit. What the heck am I thinking? Bathing? Why the heck am I getting lustful over a guy? Nooooooooo! I must erase that from my memory.

Buzz. Buzz. Buzz. 

I felt my phone vibrate countless times.

" Oh. Skeith's calling. " I mumbled as I pressed the answer button.

Hello? Skeith? 

Hey Blaire. 

Skeith replied with a cheerful voice.

What's up? 

I asked.

Nothing much. 

Oh. 

Silence kicked in after that.

So. What did you have for dinner? 

I finally said.

Beef stew and some weird soup my mom made. 

Skeith laughed as he tried to describe the soup his mom made.

Oh. That sounds yummy. 

I said as I chuckled a bit.

How about you? 

I had something from some random store. 

Oh. Must be hard to be living alone. 

It is. 

We went on and talked about random stuff. We talked about the things we liked, the things we hated, what happened today and some other weird things.

Finally, I heard Skeith yawn. A sign that we should continue this tomorrow.

You seem ready for bed? 

I teased. 

No way! I... I mean, I'm sorry for suddenly yawning like that. 

Skeith mumbled.

Yeah right. Any second now I'll probably be hearing snores. 

I chuckled as I teased him. 

So not gonna happen. 

I heard him say.

Yeah. Whatever, kid. 

I'm not a kid. I'm 16 for crying out loud. I hate it when people still treat me like a baby. 

Skeith replied furiously.

Okay. Okay. I get it. You're not a kid. 

I replied still laughing a bit.

We went on for a while until I finally heard him snore. 

Goodnight, Skeith. I love you. 

I said as I hung up.

That night I couldn't sleep. Kathrine filled my thoughts. I recalled all those times we spent together, me, Kathrine and her little brother. We seemed like a family. A perfect family. But I guess things that are perfect aren't meant to last forever.

" I guess I really miss you a lot, huh? " I mumbled as I closed my eyes. Within seconds, I was deep in sleep.