Time Cannot Resent [Gay Love]

I Blame Myself

“I kissed him… I kissed the young master… Kreiss.” my body slowly slid downwards as the door behind me clicked to a close.

I kissed him and I surely made him cry… again.

I slapped my face countless times, but no matter how hard I hit myself, I still wasn’t waking up.

All of this wasn’t a dream.

I kissed Kreiss --- er --- the young master and I think I made him cry. God, this day is so messed up.

I touched my lips… the part of my body which willingly defiled him. I slowly closed my eyes, and sure enough the sensation was still there.

“What… was I thinking?” I whispered with complete frustration.

How could I be so selfish? I don’t want to hurt him… again.

As I was sitting there, I just stared blankly into space. It was like time had stopped and nothing really mattered anymore.

What’s done is done… huh?

I mused at the thought. I picked myself up and headed towards my bed.

Every step was heavy.

Every breath was hard.

As I finally made it, I let out a sigh of relief. Instantly, I landed on the soft mattress in front of me.

This day is so draining.

***

“Sigfried~” I heard a young boy giggle as my father entered the room.

“Good day, young master!” my father greeted with a warm smile.

“Hey, can you play with me for a bit?” the lad said cheerfully as he jumped up and down, grabbing on my father’s tux.

“I’m afraid I cannot do that, young master. I have to accompany the master in his trip to Europe.”

“Aww too bad.”

“Not to worry, young master. Starting today, you will be having a new companion. Well, to be more accurate, a new butler.” my father said and quickly turned towards me. He gestured for me to enter the room’s premises. I slowly entered the room, anxious to meet the young master.

This was our first meeting and also my first time as a butler. Throughout my life, I’ve been trained for this moment.

I must not bring shame to our family.

Our family has served master Kreiss’ family for generations and it is a custom that the eldest son --- me --- of the Light family be the personal butler of the heir --- him --- to the Reins family. At the young age of 10 years old, you may not expect much from a normal kid such as myself, but believe me when I say that I have been trained for this. Since the moment I began to walk, I have been trained by my father, along with several private tutors, to be educated, well refined, and basically be a well-suited butler for the young master. I have a black belt in several martial arts and I can basically beat any intruder that may bring harm to the young master.

“Good day, young master.” I said nonchalantly as I stopped in front of him.

“Hmmm.” he eyed me from head to toe and quickly turned towards my father, “Sig, he seems no fun.”

“Haha! I’m sorry to hear that, young master, but I’m sure you will have fun with him as you get to know each other.” my father laughed as he heard the young master’s remark.