Bad Girl In Disguise (SAMPLE) I ✔

R E M E M B E R

Lucas's P.O.V
Present time

I woke up late today, which is no surprise. Me and Jesse stayed up late all night and I could barely sleep afterward.

Although a part of the reason of why I have become a lazy slacker is my sweet Jesse, a part of it is for Melody.

My mind forced me to relive her last moments in my nightmares. The moment where I watched her take her own life. My best friend, just gone.

I bang on the white wooden door in front of me. My eyes are wide and my mouth is open, but no sound comes out. All I hear are her groans of pain.

My fist grows heavy. Blood leaks down my arm and pain shoots through my hand. But all I can think of is the pain my little Melody is feeling inside. I saw that the knife in the kitchen is missing.
And I know that Melody is the thief who stole it.

The thief who planned to take her own life.

I sobbed as my body is dragged down by invisible hands. I struggle and fight, but it's hopeless. I let out a cry of anguish as a scream of pain erupted from inside the room.

"Lucas!" she shouted. I feel everything inside me break as I sink to the floor, drowning in my tears and thoughts. I reach for her desperately, but she's gone.

"Melody..." My voice is a whisper that got carried away by the ocean of venomous whispers slithering into my mind.

'Pathetic little Lucas. You can't even save a dying girl from herself," they hissed. I kept sobbing, letting them torment me as I deserve it.

'You could've made them stop. But, no. You just watched as they crushed her every day...'

I am a coward. I should've let them hurt me. I should have let them take it out on me instead of her. I cross my arms over myself, hoping that I would shrink and disappear.

'You are selfish. She would've lived if you were selfless enough to let her go!' they screamed. I screamed in pain as knives burrowed themselves in my gut.

Even my mind is trying to kill me. I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve to stay if Melody has to go.

I will join Melody soon.

"Lucas..."

I look up, and instantly all my pain disappears. I see her. Her face shifts like the wind, constantly flipping between the girl that just died and the girl I could save.

Melody, Jesse, Melody, Jesse...

She smiles softly and embraces me. I sigh and pull her close. Blood is soaking through my shirt and staining her dress. But it's okay.

She's here now.

She's Jesse.

I can save her. I can save her this time. I will stand up to her bullies and I will protect her.

I love her...

"Lucas! We're gonna' be late!"

I jolted up to see a mildly annoyed Jesse. Her brown hair is draping from her shoulders. Her pink lips are pulled into a smirk as she sees that I woke up.

"Jesse?"

"No, this is Spongebob," she retorts sarcastically. I smile and got up, all traces of the nightmare gone.

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Sometimes I can forget what has happened. Sometimes I can make my mind stop looking at the past and for once, enjoy the present. But most times, I can't fight them as they tear me down, sending me down a spiral of my own mind. The scary thing is, I don't know if I can get out each time.