Self-Titled

Chapter 13

Tyler's POV

I woke up one morning a few weeks later with my head on Josh's chest and our fingers intertwined. He was still sleeping, and I think I accidentally drooled on his chest. Hopefully he doesn't care.

I kiss his cheek as he flutters his eyes open. "Morning." I say and smile.

"What time is it??" He says groggily.

"5:39." I reply, and he groans. "Look on the bright side, at least we can talk and just lay here before we have to get up." I say, squeezing his hand.

"Yeah, you're right. This is nice." He admitted, kissing my forehead, making me smile.

I turn over so I'm facing the window. It's still dark out, but the sun would be rising soon. I had the urge to write, but I didn't want to share the part of me with him. Not yet. I don't want to scare him off yet.

"I'm actually kind of glad I'm awake," Josh says, shifting so he's spooning me. "This is beautiful."

I smiled brightly. "I agree. Dare I say..it's perfect. All of this is perfect."

He pressed his lips against my neck, and didn't say anything after that. We just laid in silence together, holding each other tight as we watched the night fade to day. It looked as if a first grader tried watercolor for the first time. It was an amazing mix of blues and a huge, glowing ball of orange coming up from the horizon. It kind of felt like the deep sea got confused and flew into the sky.

"Tyler..promise me something." Josh said after a really long while.

"Anything." I say, without thought. I do not break promises, so this could be risky. But really, I think I'd do anything for Josh.

"Promise me that after we leave each other's lives..however that may be, that you won't forget the blue haired boy you met at summer camp. Promise me you won't forget this morning, promise me that you won't forget how you're feeling, or what you're seeing right now. Because Tyler, I know I'm never going to forget you."

I was actually blown away that he would even think I could forget him. "I promise you, Josh, I could never forget you. Not in an eternity." I could tell he was feeling anxious, which was understandable. "What are you thinking?" I said softly, after a while.

"I'm thinking.." Josh began. "I'm thinking that I'm not good enough for you. For this. I feel like I don't deserve someone who kisses my cheek to wake me up at 5:39 am just so they can watch the sun rise with me. I'm thinking that I want to give you every single piece of me, but I'm scared that it still wouldn't compare to you. I'm thinking that you make me feel special in a way I've never been treated before. And I'm trying so hard to show you that I feel the same way, but I don't know how to do the same." He talked very fast when he confessed things.

I turned to face him. "Josh, there is no way I could feel unloved or ordinary around you. I can see right through you, and I know how you normally act around people. I'm the only one you'll talk to like this. I treat you the way I do because I know you're worth it. I know that you are worth my love. I see how much you are trying to give me, and I promise that not a single bit is being wasted. You are enough, and then so much more, for me. For this. For us."

I could tell he was tearing up, even though the room was poorly lit. I kissed him lightly. "I love you, Josh."

"I love you too, Tyler. So much." He said softly.

By now, I could practically see lyrics forming in my mind. I had to write them out, before I forgot. Luckily, Josh soon fell back asleep.

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Two days later, I was backstage at the amphitheater, waiting for my turn to preform. Every other Friday, we were encouraged to preform something, anything, for everyone.

"Next up, Tyler Joseph." Mr. Way says. My que. I take a deep breath, and walk out on stage.

"Um, hi. This is a brand new, like, two day old song I wrote about..well..someone I love." I say, looking at Josh and smiling. Some girls howled, and everyone clapped politely.

I sat down at my piano and took one last deep breath.

A brave man said,
"You put a name to a song
And it won't change no matter what goes wrong."
I'll try my best to find a face and a name
I'll sing until we both are one in the same

I looked at Josh as I sang, he had a mix of emotions, between happy, emotional, and something else I couldn't identify.

I don't know what I should give,
Or what I'm to sing
All I can do is give you this
And let my heart play
I know your face
Let this song whisper your name

A song is not much time to show
How beautiful you are
But I will sing a song to your heart

I don't know what I should give,
Or what I'm to sing
All I can do is give you this
And let my heart play
I know your face
Let this song whisper your name

I stood up when I was finished and took a bow. Then, Josh began the standing ovation. Soon enough, everyone was on their feet.

"I love you." Josh mouthed.

"I love you most." I mouthed back.