My Ryda 2

Chapter 18

(Amilia in media , just imagine her with a belly )

Monday morning

India POV

" I don't know , I just kinda feel like messing around with him is a risk and it feels wrong " I said to Dearra.

"India , you need to make up your mind as to who you want , you can't keep messing around with Akeem then going to Bryan for advice about it and with Damien I mean ion know but seriously just step back for awhile. I don't know what's up with you but this is not you " she replied while conditioning my hair .

"Sometimes I feel like I don't know what I'm doing like I just do it for the sake of it . I had a past with Akeem and for some reason I feel like I have to keep that up like I can never let him go " I said as tears ran down my face .

"I get what your saying boo , but you can't keep on going back and forth with him , stand your ground with him , let him and yourself know that you don't need him " she said as she wrapped my hair.

I wiped my eyes and nodded.

She was totally right, I was allowing him to use me whenever he wanted, and by doing that I've been loosing my self worth , forgetting that I deserve better.

"I get that I messed up but I apologised and it seems like he's holding that over my head and I'm done feeling bad for myself" I said breathing out .

"That's right you need to forgive yourself and move on girl , focus on you " she said washing her hands at the sink .

I clutched the towel that was around my neck and took in what she was saying.

"Thanks for being there for me , sorry for showing up at your door with tears and wild hair " I said smiling.

"You know you can walk up in here however and anytime you want " some said chuckling.

"This is why you my best friend " I sad getting up off the chair I was sitting on.

"You already know bestie, now come on lets go order pizza and watch movies " she said grabbing my hand .

"Yes I think that is a marvellous idea " I said walking in the kitchen with her .

I'm glad I had Dearra , and was there to always knock some sense into my head and give me raw advice.

Thank God for her .

Raheem POV

"Yea baby I'm looking at them now and I'm telling you they don't have the chocolate chip peanut butter one you like " I said over the phone to Roanna.

"Well look harder Raheem I'm craving again " she huffed.

"Okay babygirl, how about I get the chocolate chip ones and a big jar of peanut butter " I said picking up the biscuits.

"Okay as long as I can spread how much I want " she replied.

"Deal " I said smirking.

"Now hurry up and come home I wanna cuddle " she said quickly.

"Alright I'll be there soon, love you "

"Love you too " she replied hanging up .

15 mins later

I payed for all the stuff I wanted and walked out of Walmart into the parking lot .

I walked over to my car and pressed the car key immediately opening it .

I opened the trunk and placed the bags on the floor before closing the trunk .

I opened the door and got in hooking my phone up to be charged.