Just some random vent that kinda repeats over and over yea
But anyways, this kinda explains how it feels like to lose a parent?? Like for instance; as you all know I lost my dad when I was nine. He was killed in a hit and run and all that bad stuff
So...when you, or when I found out my father died, I was kinda just...There. I felt like nothing really existed and that my sister was lying to me.
It was my graduation night for sixth grade (not a big party just a small fun one lol) so I kinda didn't believe it.
But I also just pushed it away. I carried on with my day, my graduation, and all that good stuff. I was sad and i cried a lot and thought about ending it but I pushed through
Losing a parent is fucking tough. I never though I would experience it. My dad would always tease me about how I would let him live in my house, and how I would hide his remote to make his old ass get up..
We, I, never ever thought my dad would be the first person in my family to die.
He was so strong and tough. My dad treated me as a equal, why would I ever see him dying?
It hits hard. And you slowly get better. But you also get worse. Everytime you accomplish something great, you feel pride but you also feel like
"I wish my dad/mom could see this. I honestly wish they could talk to me."
That just kinda how I feel? Its probably also why im so shy or whatever. My Dad was the more confident one in my family so sjdbsjsndd
Yeah. Just a vent thingy
