Tom Holland imagines one shots

i'll be there for you

Y/B/N means your boyfriend name and Y/BFF/N means your best friend name

You drove to Tom's house. He was back from the shooting of chaos walking and invited you at his home for a dinner because he wanted to cheer you up. You weren't really in mood for leaving your house but Tom was your best friend and he insisted so much to eat with you that you finally accepted. You arrived at his home and rang. He opened the door quickly and hugged you tightly. You missed his hugs so much. You followed him to his living room. He told you to sit on the couch and he put the TV on. he had ordered your favorite pizza and you ate silently as he told you some jokes to make you laugh. That was so hard to smile or laugh because your mind was elsewhere, somewhere painful, full of regrets. However you didn't want to ruin your night with Tom so you did your best to hide your depressed mood.

When the sitcom you were watching ended he asked you if you wanted to go on the roof to look at the stars and drink a bit. You nodded and followed him to the roof. You notice a basket and Tom took a blanket from it to prevent you to be freezing because of the winter weather and a bottle of vodka. You sat as he opened the bottle and took a gulp of alcohol. He gave you the bottle but you declined not enjoying the vodka without a diluent. You looked at the stars and tried to enjoy the view and the beautiful sky. A sad smile appeared on your face, it reminded you so much memories that you wanted to forget so bad. A tear rolled on your face but you brushed it away so Tom couldn't see it. you needed to focus on something else but you didn't really want to talk so you grabbed the bottle and drank. Vodka without coke was truly disgusting and you grimaced at the taste. Tom chuckled at your face. you closed your eyes hoping that the alcoholic brewage would take the pain away. You heard Tom's voice and it took you aback, you were too lost in the silence to have planned that he would break it:

_ You know Y/N you can talk to me. his voice was so soft as he was afraid that his words would hurt you even more.

_ Yeah I know. You simply replied.

_ So you don't want to talk? He asked hesitantly.

_ About what? Your voice was almost a whisper, you guessed about what he wanted to talk you just hopped that you were wrong.

_ You know about what. Come on Y/N you can't act like everything was okay. Talk to me please, I just want you to feel better, no matter what I will be there for you, please talk to me. he was almost begging you and you knew that you could stay silent any longer, you couldn't reject the only person who care about you right now.

_ I don't know what to say, I don't really know how I feel. When I discovered that Y/B/N was cheating on me I couldn't believe it not after all that we have through, I denied it, I tried to find a rational explanation. But then he admitted it and I was lost, crushed, heartbroken, I thought that my all life was a lie, everything that I've built was a lie, everything. You were on the shooting and Y/BFF/N was in Thailand for her work, I had no one to talk to, to give me advices. I didn't know what to do I mean I loved him, I still do and I didn't know if I had to give another chance or break up.

All the tears that you had tried to refrain all the time were now escaping your eyes. Tom tried to brush them away but you were crying too hard.

_ I decided to ask why to understand, to decide if I should stay with him or break. And he answered me that he loved her. he told me that he loved me too and he could not decide with who he wanted to be. He said that he was sorry to make me suffer but I didn't care about his lame apologizes, it was too late. I felt the anger boiled inside me, I wanted to slap him, to hurt him physically because I wanted him to be as hurt as I was. But I didn't do anything because I cared too much about him to touch him. it took me all my strength to ask him to leave. He nodded and left the house, he said that he would took all of his stuff by the end of the week unless I still wanted to be with him.

At this point of your story, you stopped talking, you didn't have courage to continue for the moment. You were just able to sob louder and louder. Tom felt his heart broke to see you like that and he took you in his arms. You buried your head in his chest and he rubbed your back to calm you down. After minutes like that you decided to continue

_ He came back this morning and a part of me wanted to forgive me whereas the other part just couldn't stand him. before packing his things he asked me if I was sure. I nodded, it was too hard. When he left the house I was such a relief, my hesitation was gone. But then I felt empty without him, the house was empty without him and I realized that I would never see him again, he would never kiss my forehead every morning before going to work again, he would never joke about my way to always burn the grilled cheese again, he would never try to convince me that the Clash is a better band than the Sex Pistols again, he would never argue with me about what color we should paint the living room again. When I realized that it took me everything to not call him back and beg him to come back. This is so hard Tom, I have to get over the losing of someone who is still alive. I don't know if I can...

You broke into tears again, you never experimented a such pain and you just wanted it to end. Tom felt so useless to not be able to cheer you up, to take all this pain away. He simply hugged you even more tightly. After some minutes you broke the embrace and Tom put your head on his laps. He brushed the remaining tears away from your face and stroke your hair.

_ Y/N I'm so sorry I wish I could be more useful but I will do everything to help you. I know it is hard and every minute without him is a form of agony, I know that you think that your life without him means nothing. But the is so wrong, so wrong. It will be hard without him at the beginning but then you will learn to live with that pain and with the time it will disappear. You will move on. Your life will be wonderful because you are wonderful. In few months or years you will just be happy and laugh when you will think about all this period of your life.

Tom's voice was so soft, it calmed you down. You closed your eyes and you were rocked by his words.

_ I swear to you that it will be fine, alright. And talk to me anytime, it don't care if it is four in the morning. I just want to help you, to make you feel better because you're all I care. I know that I should not tell you that right now but you're all I want, you're all I have, I love you and I cannot stand to see you so sad, I will do everything to make you feel loved again, I promise.

He whispered the last part because he was terrified by your potential reaction. As you remained silent he looked at you and noticed that you were peacefully sleeping. He didn't even notice that you had fallen asleep too lost in his monologue. He smiled at your angelic face and carried you in bridal style to his bed, he did that very carefully not wanting to wake up you. he kissed your forehead nicely and left you in his bedroom. As he threw a blanket on his couch to sleep he only prayed that one day you would feel better and you would love someone again maybe him.