Tom Holland imagines one shots

prompt 17

Warning: spoilers of infinity war

This one was requested by Sydneyand3435 this is the prompt 17 (you're part of my entity, here for infinity from Umbrella by Rihanna)

You felt tears in your eyes as you entered in the new cemetery. It had been built quickly when half of the population disappeared. Everybody was touched because everybody has lost at least one person they were close with. Therefore the survivors joined their forces to build this place. It wasn't a real cemetery because people disappeared in ashes and they weren't any corpses to burry, so the council of the city decided to implant a giant garden in the middle of the city and the names of the dead ones were written on a wall. The idea was to remind that in the end life would always win and the dead weren't really dead as long as we payed tribute to them. You could always bring something that remind you the ones you loved and put them next to the wall and plants or flowers to plant in a part of the garden.

You used to go to that place at least to pay tribute to the ones you lost: your parents, one of your brothers, half of your friends and your boyfriend. Today you had decided to only focus on him. you had bought several flowers to express your feelings thanks to their language. You approached a corner where there weren't flowers but only plants and decided that it was the right spot.

You had picked a white anthurium which means shyness. You totally associated that to Peter. The first time you met him at the Stark Tower he was so nervous to introduced himself to you and your fellow Avengers. It was adorable and he was even cuter when you tried to talk to him but he was way to impress and he stuttered and flushed. He was as shy as this day when he asked you out after a dangerous mission.

You had also chosen a daffodil which meant chivalrous quality. Peter obviously had the quality of an ideal knight. He was wise for his young age. When you had a problem you would always turned to him to have support but also good advices. Those were clearly the best and it always helped you. he was also valiant but that was obvious. He was a superhero, he literally put himself in danger and could die frequently to save people. He was the literal embodiment of gallantness. Peter's generosity was known by everybody who was friend with him. he liked to share even food. When you were on dates with him he would always share his fries, ice cream, milk shakes... with you. finally he was faithful. He was faithful to his values and defended him when he was Spiderman but he was also a faithful friend with Ned, he never let him down. Thus no need to say that he was a faithful boyfriend too.

You had brought a purple lilac which meant first love emotion indeed Peter was your first love. you had a boyfriend before but it wasn't the same, you didn't have the same feelings for Peter. your feelings for him where so strong, you loved spending time with him. anytime you were on a mission he was scared to death for you and you felt the same when he was on mission. You felt like you were meant to be and no one in your life would be so important. you really believed that your love life was like a dream.

Then you took a red rose. It was harder to restrain your tears. This flower was the symbol of passion but also of a wound, pain. You loved him very much, with all your heart and you were still in love with him. but you missed him and were still in pain. When he disappeared in front of you, you couldn't believe it. it was so hurtful. Your pain was real and it was still hard to live without him. you had swear that you would defeat Thanos and resurrect Peter and would do everything to achieve that and take your pain away.

You had made yourself another promise: to remain faithful to Peter until you had found a way to defeat Thanos. So you have brought a white carnation. Obviously Peter knew that something could happen to him or to you and made you promised that you would move on if he died. You had swear it but you couldn't keep it. you couldn't imagine your life with someone else, you still loved Peter and wished to remain faithful to him and his memory.

The last flower you had planted was a white periwinkle because it was a symbol of happy memories. You had a ton of happy memories with him. the first time you met him, your first date and the ones after, your prom with him, the missions when you were partner... you couldn't remember any bad memories with him. all those memories you would never forget them, they became a part of you.

you slowly stood up and walked to the slab with Peter's name and put your fingers on it. every time you did that you shivered, you felt something as Peter was trying to talk to you, deliver you a message. You bit your lips and simply whispered: "Peter I don't know where you are but I am sure you're not dead, you're still here. At least a part of you is still here. I feel like you're still living in my memories, my mind, my heart and my soul. You tried to save us so we live thanks to you, we live for you and thanks to it I am convinced that you live too. You live in me Peter, forever, you're part of my entity, here for infinity. They say that I should move on, I know that you probably want me to move on too, you always want the best for me but moving on isn't the bets for me and I swear I'll do the best for me, for us Peter, I will constitute another team and together we will defeat Thanos and bring you back. You can count on me, I'm not giving up on you." you brushed few tears away and left the cemetery. You walked with determination to the new Avengers headquarters ready to plan a fight.