Mayara Lovato (a Demi Lovato f.f.)

- Chapter 15

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P.O.V. Mayara

First day of the tour!

Today is the first day of the tour! I'm so excited, but mostly nervous. We're heading to England. It's still early—around 8:00 a.m.—and my sister wanted everyone at her house right at that time. Is she out of her mind? I'm a grown-up teen, I need my rest! Ugh... yes, I'm definitely a moody morning person.

The doorbell rings.
"MAY!" My best friend Lily screams. We run into each other's arms like we haven't seen each other in ages.
"I'm so excited! You're going to be amazing!" she says.

Demi clears her throat.
"And you'll be amazing too, Dem," Lily adds with a little laugh. Both of them stick out their tongues at each other.

Everyone's ready. It's 9:00 a.m., and our first performance is tonight at 9:00 p.m.—just twelve hours to go.

<One hour later>

We're in first class on the plane to England. Liliana fell asleep within the first five minutes. I don't blame her—it's early. I sit between Lily and Demi. The rest of Demi's family and friends are scattered elsewhere in first class.

"May?" Demi asks softly, careful not to wake Lily. I nod. "How are you?"

Hmm... good question. I'm not completely happy, but I'm not broken either.
"I'm okay," I answer.

Demi looks me in the eyes.
"You're not really okay. I can see it."
"How can you tell?" I ask, looking down.
"You were thinking... and I've known you longer than today. May, it's okay not to be okay sometimes. Did you eat this morning?"

"Honestly... no. Are you mad?" I ask shakily.
"No, of course not! But you need to eat something. Let's get Starbucks, okay?"
"Starbucks? On a plane?" I laugh.

A few minutes later, she comes back with Starbucks for both of us.
"Wow... they really do have Starbucks," I say, half-laughing.
"Yes, of course. We're in first class, and I paid," she says with a smile.

HA! You'll get fat!
Don't drink it!
You can just purge it later

Demi snaps her fingers in front of my face.
"May! You are NOT fat! You're beautiful! You can do this. I believe in you. And it's delicious," she says, taking a sip. I slowly take mine, and the voices quiet down.

After my drink, Demi falls asleep. Everyone else is asleep too. But Marissa is still awake. I quietly make my way to the bathroom. The voices are still there, whispering...

I start to give in. I haven't done this in a while, and no one's around. I close the door behind me and...

"May!"

I hear a gasp. Marissa is pulling me up, tears in my eyes.
"MayMay, what are you doing? You're beautiful. Don't do this. I thought you stopped?" she says, stroking my back gently.
"I-I did... but Demi got busy with everything, and I... had space..." I sob.

Marissa hugs me tightly.
"You're worth it. You are more than this." She takes my hand and leads me back to her seat. She pulls me onto her lap, letting me cry into her neck.

Maybe you crush her right now. Go off, her fatty.

I crumble into her arms. She holds me tighter.
"You're not going to crush me. You're so light." Her eyes lock onto mine. I snuggle into her and finally fall asleep.

I wake up to a very loud noise.

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