my bad luv // blackbear

Chapter 20: Vicodin

BLACKBEARS POV

We left the beach as soon as the sun had gone into hiding for the night and drove back to Gabis apartment to watch some movies and go to bed.

I never wanted to go back to LA if that meant being apart from her. Being around her is just so fun and theres never a dull moment no matter if we're out and doing something or just laying in bed watching movies. I've never experienced something like this before.

Once we got back to the apartment we went to her room to get ready to watch movies in bed. I went into the bathroom to change into just my boxers and brush my teeth. After I finished brushing my teeth I went into my bag to find my orange pill bottle.

I grabbed it feeling it was extremely light as if there was nothing in it. Immediately my heart started to race. I twisted off the lid to pull out a baggy that only contained dust from the pills that I had already consumed.

I began to panic knowing I was completely out of my life support. I grabbed every shirt and pair of pants I packed in hope to find at least one pill in one of the pockets. Sadly I didn't.

I quickly grabbed my phone and texted my dealer. Typing was hard due to my shaking.

"I need more by tonight. I'm in Malibu, find a way to bring them to me and I'll pay you double." I sent and then returned to Gabi who was crawling into bed with only my t-shirt on.

I grinned at her, letting her distract me from my withdrawals.

"You're burning up, are you okay?" She asked as she cuddled into my side.

"I'm fine." I lied.

Then we started the movie.

About halfway through the movie I could hear her breathing slow down and become much heavier, knowing she was fully asleep.

I reached for my phone slowly, trying my best not to wake Gabi who was resting on my chest.

I quickly texted my dealer that he could come now and after waiting for about twenty minutes he told me he was out front.

I carefully slid out from underneath Gabi and covered her back up as I got out of bed. I proceeded very quietly out the door and outside.

"Here." I said in a whisper, handing him $500 in cash for the small pills I craved.

GABIS POV

I woke up hearing muffled talking outside my window, but was distracted when I noticed I wasn't cuddling Bear anymore. I turned over to wrap my body around his, but he was gone.

I sat up and saw the bathroom door was open and it was dark so he wasn't in there, then I was reminded of the people outside when I heard them again.

I stood up moving my curtains to be able to see what was going on outside. My heart skipped a beat when I saw it was Blackbear and some scary looking guy who had even more tattoos than Bear, which I didn't know was possible.

This man was littered in skulls and other dark ink. I also thought I saw tear drops on his face. Whoever this guy was, he didn't seem like good news. What was Bear doing with him?

That's when I saw Bear hand him a stack of cash and watched the scary man hand him something in return, which Bear immediately stashed into his jacket pocket.

My heart immediately dropped knowing what was going on, but hoping somehow I was misunderstanding this, but it all made too much sense to be a misunderstanding; his mood swings, his lashing out, him disappearing.

When I saw Bear returning to the apartment I quickly jumped into bed and pretended to be asleep.

He stripped of his sweats and jacket and crawled back into bed with me wrapping his arms around me.

I fake groaned as if he woke me up and turned to him.

"Where'd you go?" I said in a sleepy voice to make it believable.

"I couldn't sleep so I went outside to smoke a cig." He lied.

I could feel my face fall as my heart did so I turned away from him to stop him from seeing me, leaving him to spoon me.

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"Good morning." He hummed in my ear causing me to roll over onto him.

"Morning." I said with a small smile, trying to act as normal as I could.

He lifted my chin so he could kiss me and did so, placing his lips onto mine ever so gently.

"Whats on the agenda for today?" I asked him.

"Whatever you want." He cooed as he got out of bed, exposing his beautiful body.

"I have a modeling thing in the afternoon, but after that I'm down for whatever."

"Okay babe, we'll figure something out after I shower." Then he walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him.

I got up and walked over to my closet to grab something to put on when an orange jacket caught my attention.

It was the jacket he wore last night. My mind pondered through what to do; if I should snoop and see if my fears are right or if I should wait and talk to him about it.

I impulsively grabbed the jacket with both of my hands and began going through the pockets until my hands fell upon a small plastic container.

I pulled it out slowly scared to see what it was. I held an orange pill bottle in my hands. I looked at the white label on it and gasped at what it read.

"Vicodin."