When I've Fallen Too Deep

Chapter 2- Camp.

Will's P.O.V.

I ran my hands through my shaggy blonde hair while biting my lip absentmindedly. I pulled hard on the strands to calm my developing anxiety. It was wrong, I already worked that much out for myself. Yet I kept doing it, rotting my soul in the process.

I just wanted to leave, go someplace new with a fresh start. Someplace that I didn't rely on fear to get what I want and friends that actually cared for me. I just couldn't do anymore. I was becoming more and more like him. That tore me to shreds.

Someone elbowed me in the side. "Hey look, the freak's skipping." I followed his gaze through the classroom window to my left. He was right. The small boy scored an aviator jacket and baggy black jeans. Even from afar you could see his pale hands dig into the arms of his bag which made my heart clench.

He's alone, a voice told me. You could go apologies for your actions, seeing as you can't do anything else. I clenched my hands at my side to the thought. You couldn't apologize for ruining someone's life and hope to be best buddies the next day. He hated me and I understood that. I did too.

"Mr. Solace, can you please tell me how many valence electrons do halogens have?"

My attention snaps to the front of the class where Mrs. Clements stood. She was a short lady with dyed blonde hair and a stern attitude. "Um...seven?"

She squints, "Correct but please pay attention next time."

"Yes, ma'am." A person behind me snickers and I give them a look telling them to back off. "May I use the bathroom too, please?"

She glances at the clock on the wall and sighs. "Fine but bring your bag with you. The bell is about to ring in five minutes."

"Thank you," I stand up quickly and shove my papers into my bag. Cyan next to be winks, probably thinking I was going to ditch to harass Nico some more. Close but not quite.

The door slammed behind me as I walk down the hall and down to the front corridors of the school. No teachers were in the hall to stop me from going through the glass doors of the school. I could still see Nico walking down the sidewalk towards the woods.

My heart sped, did I really think I could do this? My hands just shook alone at the thought of being alone with him. He wants nothing to do with me. Again, I couldn't blame him. What reaction would I even want from him? What would I say?

Apart of me wanted him to accept the apology, but the other part was smart enough to acknowledge that would never happen. It was a selfish thought, to begin with. I knew he would yell and I know I would deserve it. No matter what.

Gosh, why was my head so confusing? There was nothing physically holding my back except my own cowardness and self-pity.

This isn't about you, It never was. You're disgusting, don't you remember? The voice rang in my head again like sirens. It stung no matter how true it was. You never really got used to it.

My dirty white converse slapped across the cold paving in a rush to catch up with a boy when I finally cleared my head. He didn't notice me even as looked both ways and stepped into the woods suspiciously. That qued my attention more than the boy himself did already. Netherless, I still followed him in despite the rock that was settling in my stomach.

I looked down at my feet to discover there was already a worn path signaling it was traveled frequently. As far as I knew, I didn't even think these woods were open to the public. Or they still were closed off and Nico just didn't care.

I stopped when the dark haired brunette came to halt. My eyebrows furrowed. Nothing was here, what was he doing? It was just a small clearing with no branches or plants for several yards. As you looked closer, you could see that even the grass and leaves turned brittle the closer they got to the middle.