I don't sleep.
Calm down, no I'm not a vampire(I wish).
I just have a hard time falling asleep. I'm an insomniac. A lot of the time I get an hour of sleep per night at most. In fact, there have been a bunch of times when I had four hours of sleep over the course of a week (which isn't healthy, I know).
I'm actually not all that affected by these sleepless nights. I often get rather bored, but I just read, write, or stare at the roof, contemplating life.
There is actually a reason behind my insomnia.
You see, there's this Dark Place inside my mind. Whenever I'm about to fall asleep, my brain goes to the Dark Place, causing me to think about things I don't want to think about. It hurts to think these things.
I used to have an issue with self-harming. I used to do it every night, because of this Dark Place.
I got clean and stayed clean for a year, but then I relapsed. I started cutting again. I was so disappointed in myself.
It was all because of the Dark Place.
That's why I stay up late. If I stay up until the point that I can't keep my eyes open, I can't go to the Dark Place.
It's become a really bad habit, but I'm glad for my lack of Dark Place visits!
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The Rants and Ramblings Of A Depressed Teen
HumorA bunch of random thing I think/say. A lot of these are just me being dumb, don't take it to seriously, alright?
