For those who don't know, I'm depressed. Now, that doesn't mean that I don't ever feel happy. That's not what depression is.
Depression is when you lose all motivation to do anything at all, no matter how passionate you are about it. For me, it's like I've fallen down a hole and I'm stuck. I can't escape the numbness that fills my entire body. I just don't have the energy to do anything. I just want to stop existing. I'm not suicidal, I don't want to put a bullet through my head. I just want to stop.
I'm not sad, I don't want to cry. I just feel numb. Sometimes, I'm in this weird trap of 'I need to do something' and 'I can't do anything'. It's this overwhelming sense of emptiness and agony at the same time.
It's not constant, some days I'm perfectly fine. But there are other days when I can't get out of bed. Where I feel like I'm dead inside - like I have nothing to live for.
Some days, I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out.
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The Rants and Ramblings Of A Depressed Teen
HumorA bunch of random thing I think/say. A lot of these are just me being dumb, don't take it to seriously, alright?
