I Won't Give Up (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 21

Zayn, oh no. He pulls me aside. I shut my eyes ready for him to punch me. Nothing happened. Huh?? I opened it. His eyes I can tell his sorry look. He finally spoke up, "Listen, Em I'm sorry what I have done. It's very stupid. You wonder why I did it. Because since we stopped liking one another and you start dating Lou, I got jealous. I loved you Emma." he said softly. I can tell his sensearly look but now it's kinda LATE of sorries. It won't work. All the sores, cuts, burns and things he made me changed my life. "Zayn, I understand your sorry but you did this over a year or so, I think one sorry or more means nothing now. If you were really sorry you wouldve stop abusing me all the time. If you were jealous you could have told me. Now I'm I'm the hospital useless and worthless like you said I was in the past and now. I'm tired of it." I said quietly but he can here me since I'm like inches away from him. He frowned. "But.." I cut him off. "But why you did this? Abusing me WONT solve YOUR own problems Zayn. I'm just saying. GO go hit me if you dare. Because i really don't care. I'm worthless. I know" I said. Dang girl since when I was that confident?! "Emma I did this to express my anger out. I shouldn't have done it I know. Every time when I hit you my stomache feels Werid because im hurting the person I loved in my life." he said.

I went out and he pulled my arm. What does he want now ruin my life? "Where are you going?" he asked softly. "To my boyfriend." I said. He kneeled to me. Awkward. "IM SORRY EMMA! I DIDN'T MEAN IT!!" he yelled and sobbed loudly. "Hey, buddy it's okay. I forgave you, just please don't and I'm serious don't hurt me that's all I want. If anything tell me and even if your jealous. I need to know. Hitting isn't a option." I smiled. I kissed his forehead. "Pretend nothing happened okay?" I told him. He nodded and kissed me back. Old times. I dont feel right forgiving him though. What he have done to me isn't worth of forgiveness. Maybe I need to do tell Lou. He left down wiping his tears. I went off to my room. Stood Lou and Harry. God how can I speak to them about it? How can I phrase it good?