p o e m s

is this hell?

~trigger warning~

~ i remember writing this in Arizona, USA. at 2 am, i still have the written down version heheh ~

written in December, 2015 

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rise, pain.

nend, pain.

twitch, pain.

nod, pain.

everywhere is pain. 

though the blood's still in my vain,

can i bare the loss i've made?

hide in the darkness, in the shade,

they lay vacant, expressionless,

is this what i've done?

created a monster within all this mess?

the blood on my fists only i can foresee,

for demons around had possessed me.

my own emotions lie in front,

am i dead? no maybe not.

but inside i'm with them, done with the wind,

forgive me god for i have sinned!

for i killed myself... but i'm still living.

is this hell?

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