Is there Truth in the Stars? (A Laurisa Cimorelli Fanfiction)

Chapter 6 -Another Wednesday-

Chapter six

It was Wednesday again. Why was it always Wednesday? I couldn't sleep the last night, shifting around not being able to shut my thoughts down. On Wednesdays I try to distract myself. And it was working the best with books.

At 5am I stopped trying to fall asleep. I got dressed and took my large bag of books. Lisa and Dani were still sleeping and for one moment I looked at them and thought about the times when we were younger. It was like having a sleepover everyday because we weren't just sisters. We were best friends too. How often did Christina, Katherine and Amy sleep in our room or we would take a mattress to their room. We had pillow fights and movie nights so often that it was normal.

Even then Christina would try to give us orders and be the leader but later she would laugh about our jokes and stop with her role. Katherine would make us laugh with all her funny puns. And Amy wouldn't be able to stop laughing. And her laugh was amazing. The most honest thing in this world. Lisa would be so lazy. She wouldn't do anything just laying there. Most of the time we sat next to each other and she never wanted me to get up because she said it would get cold. She would paint our nails and do our hair. And Dani would be Dani. Funny and spicy and just joking around.
I don't really know what I bring to it because most of the time I wasn't doing anything. But still I felt like that was my home and the place I belonged to.

Quietly I closed the door behind me because these times were over.

I walked down the stairs and wanted to sneak out when a voice stopped me.

"Where are you going?" It was Christina. She was in her pjs probably just wanting to drink some water before going back to sleep.

"Just outside" I said. No one should know where I spend my Wednesdays. Because I didn't want anyone to show up one day.

"But it's so early. Can't you stay a little longer? We could make breakfast and do something fun. We could spend the whole day together" She smiled at me and I wanted to say yes because I loved spending time with my birthday twin. Because she looked so trustful and so eager that I wanted to run into her arms and cry. But it was Wednesday.

"I have to go. Maybe another time", I said.

"Hey, but don't come home late again, Lauren. It's not good to walk around that late."

I rolled my eyes.

"See you" I just said because then I didn't have to make a promise I know I couldn't keep.

I spend the whole day reading a book in the library and when I came home it was already after midnight. So Wednesday was over and I was proud to make it through another one. In the beginning, it felt like I couldn't survive only one of them. But now I got good at dragging my thoughts away.

Quietly I sneaked into our room. Everyone was sleeping and after getting ready I laid myself down and realized how tired I really was. Well I was awake for over 20 hours. 

But it was terrible. My dream was weird and so realistic and someone held me down and pressed me to the ground and I saw faces I didn't want to see. And there was screaming and everyone was scared and it was terrible.

"Hey, Lauren, wake up, please it's okay"

Finally I woke up and looked directly into Lisa's eyes.

"You had another nightmare. But it's okay" she said and stroke a streak of my hair behind my ears. She smiled at me warmly.

"It's not" I whispered. "It's not even Wednesday anymore. It's supposed to be over. Why doesn't it feel like it?" I asked and tears were filling my eyes.

"I know. Lauren, it's okay. You'll feel better tomorrow. I promise."

She put her arms around my body and I hid my face in her neck and sobbed quietly. Somehow I couldn't stop myself. Lisa's arms were like the last place where I wanted to be but I couldn't do anything.

"It's okay. You will see."

We hugged a little longer until I freed myself out of that hug and I looked at my older sister's face. She looked tired and sad and there was something else I didn't know what it was.

"Go back to sleep, Lauren. It will be better tomorrow."

I nodded and laid down again. Lisa put my blanket back over me and stroke my hair once more. Then she went back to her bed and I thought about how to explain to her that nothing changed between the two of us. I had a little melt down. Nothing more.

Maybe something broken was in her eyes too.

Another chapter! :) Thank you so much for reading and I hope you like it. :)