Is there Truth in the Stars? (A Laurisa Cimorelli Fanfiction)

Chapter 19 -the last wednesday-

Lisa's POV

"Mom you can't do that, please!" I begged as Mom carried another bag to the car.

"It's enough, Lisa. Calm down, okay? We talked about this a thousand times."

"Just hear me out."

"We did, Lisa. Now let it go." Mom threw that bag in the trunk and came back putting one hand on my shoulder lightly. "It's what she wants."

"You know, what she also wanted? She tried to kill herself!" I screamed because how could people be so blind?

Mom looked around scarred one of the neighbors could have listened. She closed the door behind her. "Stop it! Her therapist said it's a good idea, too. She is good now, Lisa. I know you are scared but now we have to have faith in her, okay? She'll be fine."

Lauren walked down the stairs. She wore her light blue jacket, some black pants and I saw her huge backpack over one of her shoulders. She smiled shyly at me and I knew she didn't know what to say to me. We didn't talk much these last few days after getting milkshakes. It was just a moment, I guess. I wanted to give her space and then try to get to her again.

But then she suddenly talked about getting this job in New York and about letting everything behind her.

"Please Lauren. Stay here. Please" I tried begging again even though I absolutely knew she wouldn't change her mind.

"I need to go, Lisa. It's my dream job. And it will help me move on."

"But you'll be all alone. Why can't I come with you?"

She swallowed hard. "Because everything here and you are full of memories. I don't wanna be remembered every single day, Lise. I'm sorry. But I talked to Sandra about it and she said it's the right thing to do."

"I don't think it is." That stupid therapist wasn't there to make her run away from everything.

"I know. And I love you for that, Lisa." She was now in front of me, letting her backpack slide on the ground and then hugging me. I never wanted to let her go.

"I'm sorry. But I guess with me being gone you can move on, too. I know you still have nightmares. So do I. I think we need to be apart from each other to get better. And maybe in a year or two then we'll be finally okay again."

"What do you mean? Are you planning on letting us go for such a long time?"

"As long as it takes for us to get better."

"No, stop it, Lauren! Don't make this about the both of us cause it is not! It's only about you! And I don't get it! So I only remind you of every single bad thing that happened in your life?"

It hurt so bad.

"No. You remind me of every good thing, too. But I can't handle both right now."

"Lauren, we need to go!" Mom screamed. I didn't even realized how she walked out again.

I looked back to my little sister feeling panic rising up in my chest. My therapist Julia told me to breath through these feelings and to think about something happy. But there was nothing happy in my head or wherever. She is about to leave me.

"I'll miss you Lisa."

"Then don't go."

"Please let me go. I need to go, to move on. I'm sorry."

"Maybe I can come visit."

"Maybe when I'm better. I can't do it right now. Thank you for saving my life, Lisa. But now you need to save yours. Do you understand me?"

I shook my head. There were so many tears and I felt like I couldn't talk anymore.

"Okay. I already said goodbye to the others. Goodbye Lisa. I hope you'll get better soon. Don't worry about me. You had to do that too much. Now it's your turn to get happy. I mean it. Don't worry."

"How?"

"That's why I leave. So you can figure that out. I love you." And with that she just left out the door, climbing into the car next to Mom. And I only saw the lights when Mom turned the car to the street. Then she was gone. And I didn't know for how long.

That night I went out and laid down on the grass. When I looked up I saw all of these bright stars. They were beautiful. It was like they had so much to say about those things us people on earth don't even know. They must think we're really stupid. They remind me of all the things I wanted to tell my little sister. I didn't know how she was. I knew she was in New York working for a fashion designer. But still I wanted to know how she was. Was she happy? Will she be back?
I wanted to find some answers in the stars but there were none. I never wanted things to turn out this way. I wanted to protect my sister, I wanted to save her. But in doing this I lost her.

But I also know she was right. I have to get better. I have to move on, too. Because I was a mess all of the time. I just have to try to get better without her.

And I still have hope.

Maybe when we both feel better we'll come together und be better together.

Until then I have the stars to remind me that there has to be more.

The end

Please don't hate me!!! I know this end might be different than what you expected, and I first wanted to write a different last chapter but then this is the one I suddenly came up with. And I mean there's still hope that the characters in this story will come together again. Maybe they just need their time.
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And again please don't hate me!!!