Is there Truth in the Stars? (A Laurisa Cimorelli Fanfiction)

Chapter 16

They were with Lauren while I stayed in the waiting room. Christina told me I should come with them, but I knew that Lauren wouldn't want to see me. She wasn't comfortable around me anymore.

Maybe I wasn't ready to see her either because I was too scared that I would see that lifeless body of hers once again.

Lauren and Dad were about to get their surgery and then Lauren will have a new liver. The doctors told us that she could go home in three to five days depending on how she was doing after the surgery. I prayed for everything to go well. But being alone in the waiting room was horrible. Slowly I started losing my mind.

Finally Christina came back and sat down next to me.

"How is she?" I asked.

"You should have come along. She is really weak and sleepy, and she couldn't talk much. Now she's in surgery and the others are in the cafeteria. You want something?"
I just shook my head, no.

"Me neither."

We couldn't do anything but wait.

When our family came back they sat down with us. Dani threw herself on the floor and she talked more than ever trying to get us in a good mood but I knew how nervous she was. She wanted her sugar to be okay. We all wanted her to be okay. And we wanted Dad to be okay.

Finally the doctor came back. We all jumped up and looked at him.

"The surgery went well. Mr Cimorelli is already awake and relieved he could help. I'll bring you to him soon. And Lauren did really well, too. She will wake up soon. Maybe someone should be with her."

"Thank you so much", Mom said and the doctor smiled.
He then took us to the rooms. Katherine, Mom, Amy and I went to Dad first. Dani, Christina, Alex and Michael went to Lauren.

As the doctor told us, Dad was okay. He was a little weak and a little more pale than usual. But he smiled and he couldn't wait to see Lauren. But he wasn't allowed, yet.
When Christina, Amy, Alex and Michael came to see Dad, Katherine, Mom and Amy went to Lauren's room. But I stayed with Dad. I wanted to see my little sister more than anything. But she wouldn't want that and I had to accept that.

"She didn't wake up, yet" Christina explained and sighed. "But the doctor told us that it was normal. It was a huge surgery for her and she was so weak before. We don't need to panic." Everyone just nodded. I bet we all panicked anyway.

"You're not going?" Dad asked and I shook my head.

Suddenly I didn't feel okay. Something was really wrong. I had no idea what it was but inside my stomach there was this feeling. I didn't know what it was. I had no idea how to handle it, what to do with it. I just knew that nothing was fine. Something was really, really wrong. I mean, she just laid there. Lifeless, quiet. I don't think I ever had to witness a moment this quiet. And I couldn't reach her. They had to bring her back to life because this was more serious than when we were younger and I could protect her from some 7th grader who made fun of her bows.

"Lisa? Lisa? Are you okay?" Christina looked at me worried. But it was like she was far away. I felt my heart beating in my chest. It was so fast and it hurt. My breathing did the same.

"Okay, let's go outside. Everything's fine." I guess it was Chris again who said that. I felt a hand wrap around my wrist and then I got pushed outside. I stumbled behind that person that dragged me but eventually my legs gave in and I tried desperately to get oxygen in my lungs.

"Breathe, slowly. Everything's alright. Shh. It's okay."
I tried to concentrate on the words that were spoken to me and finally after what felt like an eternity my breathing calmed down.

Slowly I could see my surrounding again. I sat on the floor in the hallway of the hospital, my back against the wall. And in front of me there was Christina who handed me a water bottle.

I took it and drank half of it at once.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered.

"Don't be."

Nervously I brushed through my hair. "I have no idea what that was about."
"I do."
I looked at Christina confused.

"You saw her. You saw her lying there and I can't imagine what you must have felt. It's pretty understandable for you to break down. I mean you were there when those people robbed the bank you saw everything but you never broke down."

I was quiet because I had no idea what to say.

Christina smiled at me warmly. "Maybe we thought it wasn't as hard for you. And we were so wrong to think that. Because you went through everything as well. Maybe you also need help."

"What do you mean? It was just a panic attack."

"No. It wasn't. I know you haven't been happy in a long time. You need help, Lise. And that's okay."

"Okay, I guess." It was too much and I was drained from the panic attack. I had no idea how to feel. But maybe Christina was right. Maybe I needed help, too.

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